Note: This is my first fanfic story for twilight, so I hope that you'll like it. Reviews will be much appreciated.

Disclaimer: All twilight saga facts belong to Stephenie Meyer.

CHAPTER 1 REALIZATION

Edward has been a close friend of Bella since they were in elementary because they attended the same school and of course their families have been friends forever. Edward has always been there for Bella when she got in trouble and vise versa. They actually know about each other's secrets, that's what best friends are for, right? Yeah sure, they confess to each other with just about anything and everything except for the simple truth that they don't only love each other as friends but they are in love with each other.

EPOV

It is morning and Edward has just awakened. With a heavy heart, he prepared for school.

"It's been a long time since I thought of Bella in this kind of way. Something must have triggered it. "

With a sigh, he then realized that maybe it was because there's this some guy in school that Bella has shown interest for the first time. There have been so many guys who took a fancy with her but she denied them all and she never even had second thought about it. And Edward secretly rejoiced each time this happens. As her best friend, of course he knows all of what's in Bella's mind and she even asked for his opinion about the guy!

"How pathetic can I get?!"

As always, he didn't give a sign of what he truly feels. He commented that the guy was okay because he really can't see any flaws about him. He wished though that he could say ugly things about him, but, nada. Jacob, he's in the basketball team in school, none other than the captain of the team, handsome, friendly, intelligent, what can you say, an A1 kind of a guy.

"Aaaah, how can I compete with that? I wish he was a dork." He said grudgingly.

Now is really a good time for Edward to start analyzing his feelings for her and owning up to it. But he's really scared of the outcome. Would he be willing to risk their friendship and closeness for his selfish reason? He's been suppressing his feelings for Bella since they were in freshmen. Edward convinced himself that being her best friend is the best way for them both especially for him; at least he could always be with her. And now that they are in senior year he feels that he should really act up for lost time and for the fact that this time Bella could really be taken from him.

"I wish I could know how she truly feels about me?"

He knows that Bella cares about him and that she's always there for him but what if it's only him that feels this kind of way. He's giving himself a big headache. So, he stopped. He should at least do a plan of action, later.

Since they have the same schedule at school, most of the time, he picks Bella up at her house unless she wants to drive her own car or they had a small fight.

The phone's ringing and he already knows who that is.

"Morning sleepy head, school, remember? And incase you forget, please pick me up. I have something to tell you and it's big, actually, it's huge!" Bella excitedly told Edward.

"Hey, what's this about?" He asked annoyingly.

"It's for me to know and for you to find out, and if you get here you'll surely find out, ha, ha, ha, ha! Hurry, were going to be late for school, see yah." She then hanged up the phone.

"See y…., she didn't even let me finished speaking, grrrr," Edward said frustratingly, he had a bad feel about this and he's dreading about what Bella will say.

After ten minutes, he reached Bella's house. She's already waiting outside.

"Hi, thanks for picking me up, again?' She sweetly smiled and hasn't stopped smiling until we reached the campus.

Edward wants to ask right away what she wants to tell him but he wants to ask neutrally, without showing how this really affects him. And hard as he can, he can't bring himself to ask without getting irritated because deep in his heart he knows that it's about this guy, Jacob, the A1 guy. Caught up in thought, Edward didn't even realize that they arrived already.

Turning off the ignition, he looked at his smiling Bella and tried to compose himself, turning into the best friend that she knew.

"So, Bella aren't you going to tell me? Do you know that you look like a clown? That smile is plastered on your face since I picked you up and you look ridiculous. Get over it already." I said annoyingly. But deep inside, I felt like my heart was pinched and I felt like I had a run, it's like my heart is palpitating. And my heart beat is all over the place. As I waited for her reply, I looked at her looking at me. I just then realized that she stopped smiling.

"So? What?" I asked again.

"Why are you annoyed? Are you really interested in knowing?" She pouted and irritatingly looked at me.

"Of course I am, would I ask if I wasn't?" I gave a deep sigh and apologized to her because she looked like she's starting to get pissed at me.

"Okay, my bad, I'm sorry, I guess I got up on the wrong side of my bed." I replied. Oh my God, the suspense is killing me but I kept it cool and gave her my crooked smile that she said is always cute on me. I hope it looked real.

"Please tell me already, my one and only love…ly best friend you." I can see that I pulled it off because I can already see the smile that I love about her and it is turning into a laugh because I started battling my eyes. I couldn't help but laugh too and even with the knowledge that I maybe hearing something that I wouldn't like, it still felt good laughing with her. I really want us to be more than friends and I know that we are perfect for each other but how?

"Okay, enough already, who's the clown now?" She started laughing again, she then hugged me tight, I stopped laughing and hugged her in return, this is the only time that I savored the feeling of hugging her and she let me, I felt that she needed it and I know that I do.

She whispered "I love you" and then Bella kissed my cheek and left my embrace. She sighed and looked at me with a sad smile.

I know I heard her right, Every now and then we say I love you to each other, friends do that but this time it seems different, it felt different. I just didn't know what she means, does she love me as a friend or is she in love with me?

"You know I love you too" I said nervously. Her smile left her face and she looked at me, really looked at me. And so I couldn't help it, my tongue ran away with me.

"Why wouldn't I, you're beautiful and smart, I treasure you because you're the best friend of my life." I made myself smile. Oh, I really wanted to say "The love of my life" but how could I? I guess I'm a coward. She's my first love and I've loved her for many years now, the problem was she just doesn't know it yet.

She smiled and gave a little laugh.

"Yeah, right. I know. Well, since you're my best friend, I'd like to formally inform you that I decided to date Jacob." She dropped the bomb and started to get out of the car.

"What?! Wait….wait….Bella!" I called out to her and immediately got my bag and ran after her. She looked at me but continued to walk.

"I said, I. Decided. To. Date. JACOB!" She said again.

"I heard that, I mean, why?" I asked, I couldn't let it go.

"Why what?" She rolled her eyes with frustration.

"You should be happy for me, I maybe having my very first boyfriend at last. At least now I won't be victimized by one of your girlfriends. And by the way, you don't have to bring me home after school. He got that job now." With a smile and a wink, she waved and said bye. Without looking back, she went into her class room.

I just stood there dumbstruck by what she said, I couldn't breathe normally. I couldn't think straight. Good thing she didn't looked back because I swear she would have guessed right away how much I love her, not as a friend but as a man to a woman. All I can think about was Bella with that stupid guy. My Bella, gone? I felt like a knife was twisted deep in my heart.

The bell rang. Reality calls.