The sun warmed my face, and the wind played with my hair as I layed on my back in the cool grass. I closed my eyes and imagined I was floating. Nothing to scare me, nothing to frighten me, just myself. Floating... I was sure I was asleep, and then I heard the voice that I had cried so many tears over.
"Bella," he whispered. My eyes shot open, and I sat up abrubtly. All the peace was gone, and now I looked around wide-eyed and terrified. I could feel myself falling apart all over again, tearing from the inside out. I couldn't breathe.
"I love you," the voice whispered. I fell to the ground and wrapped my arms around myself in my last attemp to hold myself together. But it was too late. I was already remembering him, and the tears blinded my eyes. I closed my eyes tightly, but the tears still pushed their way through. As much as I didn't want to, I opened my eyes and instantly regreted it. There he was. The most beautiful and perfect thing I had ever seen. His eyes were mesmerizing and I couldn't help looking away from him. He walked toward me with a smile on his face, and held me in his arms. I couldn't breathe again. I knew that this was not real. Just my mind tormenting me with images and memories from my past. I tried to get away from him, but he held me tightly. I couldn't fight anymore. I just stayed wrapped in his arms... wrapped in my own forbidden memories. And then he was gone, and I was back in the meadow. The sun was were I had left it, but it's rays couldn't warm me anymore. I was cold, and I was breaking. Shattering into a million tiny pieces. I felt myself fall to the ground and then everything went black.
"Bella! Bella!" I heard someone shouting my name over and over, but I didn't even bother to wake up. I liked it here. It was dark and quiet, and I couldn't think of anything that might tear me apart again.
"Bella! "Bella" It was becoming lighter.
"No!" I screamed. I didn't want to leave this peaceful place. But then my eyes fluttered and I was looking up into the frightended eyes of Charlie.
"Oh, Bella!" he cried. "You're okay!" I tried to say something but I couldn't manage because the tears were already coming again. I barly managed to push my thoughts away from him.
"Shh..., Bella it's okay." Why was he telling me to be quiet? Was I screaming? I couldn't feel anything as he lifted me up and carried me back to his cruiser. I didn't realize how tired I was, but soon I was sleeping on the cool leather in the back of his car. I didn't realize we were even home, but then I was in Charlie's arms again and he layed me on my bed. He kissed my forehead, murmered something unintelligable, and then left, shutting the door behind him. I turned over on my side and wrapped my arms around myself. I eventually fell asleep. Crying had finally worn me out.