Disclaimer: I don't own FMA or the characters. I just own this storyline. Title of story inspired by Gavin Digraw

Chariot - Ch.1

Falling Through a Brick Wall

Why is life so hard? If I told you I wanted to die right now I wouldn't be lying and I wouldn't be using it as an escape from the hardships of life. I can't die though...even if I want to, I can't because I'm searching for the thing that will bring me back to completion. I lost two of my limbs in an offal way. I was trying to bring my mother back to life. As you may have guessed the resurrection didn't go so well.

My brother, Al, lost his entire body and he would have lost his soul as well if I hadn't sealed it inside a suit of armor, but you'll find out more about him later.

My reason for wanting to die? Well, about a month ago I was on patrol for the State Alchemy Office, base, whatever I work for; it was a routine sort of thing, about twelve at night and in one of the allies surrounding the base. That's when it happened, I laugh dryly and cry at the same time every second I think about how I wasn't able to prevent it from happening to me.

Al's tried to consul me ,but nothing helps... I can't even bare to have his cold steal touch my skin let alone someone else's. All I remember from that night was someone, no, two men come up behind me and push me on the ground. I didn't even get to react in time before the dirtier ,and taller, of the two pulled my pants down as the other held me, then he pushed into me. You think someone...anyone would hear me scream, but no one came...n-no one would...I'm sorry I have to stop...I don't want to...

Wh-why-? Why is life...so hard?

A/N:

I'm new here and FMA fics are not my thing, but this sort of just sprang up. I'm a member of the stealandsparks community on even though I only post art on Some people post WAY too many fanfics on there, livejournal in general I mean.

Anyways, I'm new here and my main fanfic thing I write for is Harry Potter slash, Harry/Draco actually. I don't update often though so don't expect much unless I get a good amount of reviews and start to feel bad b/c you guys are reading it and liking it and I haven't updated in weeks. So depending on how well this goes over I'll update sooner.

P.S.

Next ch. will be longer even though this was a spurt of the moment thing.

Also, don't ask to be my beta, I don't like the idea of a beta, gurr...