Author's note: this is my first ever fanfic/story. I usually write poems wo i am really only use to writing smaller things. I also have shit grammar and i cant spell right have the time so i am so so sorry about that. I am also not from the uk i am from America so i may say slang that people in the uk wouldn't normally say but i will try my best to make it sound like it's the characters talking and i definitely will be using some British slang. If you see any mistakes and you would like to correct me go ahead i honestly would really like to hear it! Thank you so much!
DISCLAIMER: this contains dark themes such as abuse and other dark shit
It's been two months, two whole months since school has been over, two whole months since mini had her baby and two whole months since i found out my mother was still alive. I've visited my mom often and I've even been to mini's multiple times to see her and her baby. But i still feel lonely, so fucking lonley and i don't know what to do. I've talked to matty and nick again, i told them i loved both of them but i couldn't chose (more like wouldn't chose) and i needed space. So i turn to the only person i know how too and i know its a stupid fucked up idea but i still do it. I turn to luke.
RING RING RING RING
Luke answer's after the 4th ring.
"well if it isn't the one and only franky Fitzgerald" he says, laughing into the phone. "Come to try and win me back, ey? Right little franky?"
"Shut up luke... i- i jus-" i sigh and spit it out "i miss you okay? And i want to see you..."
Silence.
"Luke? You there?"
"Yes i'm here franks. And if i remember correctly i told you not to leave me but you did anyway huh? Didn't you?"
"Yes i did bu-" luke cuts me off
"No buts franky, you know the rules. Come by my flat and we can sort it out" he says with a emphasis on sort.
"Fine. See you then luke." I say hanging up the phone and letting out a huge sigh.
I change into a black and white plaid shirt and bright pink jeans with my black converse. The converse are old and kind of torn up but it's cute and it will have to do. I walk down the stairs and run to the door trying to avoid my dads.
"Where are you going young lady" geoff says to me in a stern tone. He still has a scar from where i pushed him into the side of the counter. I still feel bad about it, i mean he was being a big twat but i still love him and i didn't mean to hurt him. I wish i could go back and re do what i did.
"Just... out." I say trying hard to avoid answering his question properly. I sigh "I'll call you later okay? Love you" i give him a quick peck on the cheek and i open up the door and leave.
Luke's flat isn't too far away so i get there in no time.
KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK
Luke opens the door with a big smirk on this face.
"Hmm, been awhile franks" he smiles and reaches his hand out expecting me to take it.
"fuck off" i say moving past him.
His flat is clean but reeks of weed and alcohol. I go onto the sofa and light up a spliff breathing in the smell and letting the high relax my body.
"So love, what do you want?" He says taking a seat next to me wraping his arm around my shoulder.
I exhale the smoke onto his face and i lean in almost as if im going to kiss him.
"I want.. you, luke i just want you" i whisper and take another drag from my spliff. I exhale the smoke onto his face again. he takes the spliff from my hand and takes a drag, slowly running his free hand across my cheek.
*SLAP*
he slaps me hard across my cheek. I open my mouth and cup my cheek with my hand trying hold back the tears that are forming in my eyes.
"You have to earn the right to want me" luke says taking another drag and laughing while exhaling the smoke in the air
"Stop doing that, i dont like that" i say looking at him still cupping my cheek
"Who the hell said you had a right to tell me what to do? You think you're all big and propper now because you fucked me over for a few months?" He grabs my wrists and shakes me hard making me squeal.
"No... no one said that. Im sorry." I say giving up and accepting the fact that he probably won't leave the fact i fuck him over alone. He let's go of my wrists and let's out a small laugh. He gets up and walks towards the bedroom.
"Where are you going?" I say with a slight tone
"To sort you out all good and proper" he says giving me a classic luke style smirk "come on then" he motions for me to go to the bedroom. I hesitate for a moment, i know what he means by 'sort me out good and proper' and im not sure if i wanna take up the offer. 'fuck it' i think and i get up and walk towards the bedroom. As i walk past luke he slaps my ass and i jump a little in suprise
As soon as i walk into the bedroom he closed the door and pushes me onto the bed catching me by surprise i squeal but quickly shut up when luke starts kissing me.
I'm outside smoking a fag wearing one of Luke's pull overs. Its big and warm and it feels soft, quite the opposite of how luke feels. I can feel the cool breeze on my legs and it's quite soothing (then again it's probably because im buzzed)
"Fuck me franks you always gotta wear something of mine don't you?" Luke says smiling
I turn around too look at luke "it's quite comfy plus it's easy to take of" i pause for a moment then smirk "you would like that wouldn't you?" I let out a small chuckle
"Yeah, i would but I'd prefer you without anything at all on... it makes it much easier to.." he leans in close "fuck you and leave marks all over"
I close the gap between us and kiss him open mouthed. I run my fingers through his hair and he grabs my wrists breaking from the kiss. He starts staring at me with pure lust in his eyes
"Come on flyweight, let me take you somewhere"
"Alright, where?" I ask
"You'll see" he turns around and walks back to the door but just before he goes in he turns back towards me. "And look nice" he smiles and walks back.
It's around 7 when we get to the sports bar. Luke and his mates are all around a pool table betting on who's gonna win while I'm at the bar taking shots with one of Luke's mates girlfriends (i think her name was violet but i didnt really pay attention)
"Josh and luke are totally best mates so that makes us like best friends for like totally ever!" She says dragging out the 'er'
"Yeah, totally" i say sighing and looking back at luke. He looks really sexy playing pool with his mates, he is wearing tan khakis with a black blazer under a purple shirt. I can see him laughing and pulling out some money from his pocket. He looks over at me and motions for me to come to him.
"You look very gorgeous in that dress franky! How much was it?" Violet says with gleaming eyes
"Oh.. erm im not sure, luke got it for me" I'm wearing a sexy pink silky dress that fits tight on the torso but flows out under. It's very expensive luke said, he wouldn't let me look at the price tag. He even wouldn't let me pick out the dress, he told me to try it on and as soon as i walked out the changing room his eyes lit up and he smiled. He said i looked fuckable, sexy and beautiful all in one. I thought it was a bit too tight and short but I've been learning my opinion never matters when it comes to luke.
"I've got to go to luke, come with?" I say turning back to violet and smiling
"Totally!" She says getting off her seat and heading twards the boys. Lukes got his hands around pool stick ready to hit the blue ball when i slide my hand along his back walking next to him. I lean in close and whisper in his ear "good luck baby"
He shoots and doesn't make it in the hole and josh starts laughing. Luke smirks and looks over to me "be my cheerleader franks? dance for me love"
I stand there for a moment, there's no music so how am i supposed to dance? But i obligate and starts dancing to no particular beat, it takes me a minute to find one and i soon start swaying my hips and moving my arms all over my body. Luke shoots and gets the black ball in the hole earning a big cheers from me and his mates. He takes my hand and spins me around causing me to laugh.
"Your smile is beautiful flyweight" luke says taking his hand and sliding it under my chin making me look into his big beautiful eyes.
"This place is boring luke" i bite my bottom lip. "Lets get out of here"
"Where?" He says smirking
"There's a new club in the city... how bout' there" i say leaning in pressing a long drawn out kiss on his cheek. He looks at me and smirks then looks twards his friends then back at me.
"Alright" he pauses and leans in close almost in contact with my ear "Let's go" he says. I let out a small exhale. I was holding my breath without even realizing it.
The club is packed with drunken people and the occasional sober, the lights are green and purple with some red. Everyone is dancing and having fun, There is a group of people in the middle grinding up on each other (pull up the girls dress's and pull down the guys pants and they would be fucking on the dance floor) luke pulls me off to the bar and orders us each two shots of vodka and we down them quick. I get off my seat and start walking to the dance floor.
"Come on luke let's dance" normally i would never be this straight forward but i think its the buzz talking. (I have always been a lightweight) we get to the dance floor and i start swaying my hips and moving along to the music (it's quite a good beat) luke takes my hand and spins me around causing me to giggle a bit. I start moving down lukes leg in a very sexy way then shake my butt back up and start grinding on him softly. I then let my body go completely loose and i start swaying back and forth rocking my hips as i go. I notice that luke is looking at me with perving eyes, he likes this so i decide to give him a show. I start moving more swiftly to the beat of the music, hands over my head and my hands swiveling at the ends of my wrists. Luke takes his hands and puts them on my hips and pulls me closer too him making me release a small "mhh" from my mouth. He starts rocking his hips up against my ass and i laugh while i put my hands over his head leaning my head back on his shoulder.
"You like that franks?" He says smirking at me (i couldn't see him smirk, my eyes were closed)
"Mhm yes" i reply opening my eyes
"Let's get something more to drink franks" he says, pulling me twards the bar.
We get to the bar and down 2 more shots and luke pulls out a small bag of white power. I already know its cocaine just by looking at it. He takes a bump and so do i, I lean my head back and smile then look back up at luke. I give him a wet wanting kiss and i nibble on his bottom lip. He grabs my wrists and holds them down so i can't play with his hair. I break the kiss and smile looking over my right shoulder, i see someone. Someone i really don't want to see, I see nick. Luke sees my facial expression change and follows my gaze to nick.
"Aw you're little boyfriend here to try and win you over franky?" He chuckles and looks back at me, im still looking at nick. Luke opens his mouth to say something but matty comes into view causing luke to shut his mouth. "Two brothers in one night again franks? Hmm? Pathetic." He says then orders another shot.
I turn my gaze back to luke. "No, neither of them are my boyfriend luke i dont want either of them anymore" i say trying to get luke to calm down. I sit up straight and look into luke's eyes. "Luke... i promise you okay? They all hate me anyway" i give luke a lopsided smile and pray that he doesn't lash out. I get up off my seat grabbing lukes hand and start making my way twards the dance floor when someone steps in front of me blocking my path.
"Franky? What the hell are you doing" liv looks from me to luke then back to me "oh you're with him" liv gives me the death stare and laughs "oh my god franky you are so fucking pathetic you have to give yourself off to him! Him of all people! May I add, again!" She laughs and starts shaking her head.
I leg go of lukes grip and push liv backwards "shut the fuck up liv you don'tknow anything!" I yell at her
"Oh really? I don't know anything? Really franky? I know he killed grace! And i know YOU WERE THE REASON REASON GRACE WAS IN THAT FUCKING CAR!" Liv says yelling the last bit at me. She pushes me back against the wall hard causing me to hit my head on the wall and gasp. Liv still blames me for the crash, i understand why seems how i sometimes still blame myself for it, but i dont really think liv has even properly dealt with grace's death. I mean, i know i didn't deal with it the most healthy way but liv never really seemed to really deal with it. She was just so angry at me and angry at the world. I know how she feels honestly, i was angry too. More at myself than at the world but now im just sad (though luke seems to cheer me up a lot). Sometimes i feel like liv blames herself for not being a better friend to grace.
"You know what? You two are actually fucking PERFECT for each other" liv lets go of me and walks back towards the rest of our friends (more like her friends now).
"FUCK YOU LIV... FUCK ALL OF YOU!" i scream at her and run too the exit hoping none of them follow me. I can't breathe, i feel like im having a panic attack. My hands are shaking and my stomach is turning, im not sure why I'm like this i hardly ever get like this anymore (it's probably the fucking cocaine luke gave me). Fuck luke, fuck luke and his big beautiful eyes and his stupid cocaine and just fuck EVERYTHING! I'm done, im sick of feeling like shit because grace (oh beautiful gracie, she was my best friend. She was so amazing) died. No more stupid pathetic franky who feels sorry for herself, I'm done with that pathetic girl i was. I'm so done with her, this franky will be different and i don't care what anyone thinks of her (i know luke will love her though). I'm changing, forever.
A/N: sorry that this chapter wasn't very exciting. I was just trying to establish a setting for the whole story first but I promise the next chapter will be very exciting! Don't forget to review and favorite this! Any reviews would honestly help me a lot and they would be greatly appreciated! And honestly I highly doubt a lot of people will review and follow seems how skins is a older show and not a lot of people really look up cranky and Luke FanFiction but either way I am actually really enjoying writing this so I will update and continue writing no matter if no one reads it lol. Thank you so much for reading!!
- ash.