So this is about what might happen to Eli if Clare passes. Which I sincerely hope does not happen.
I lay in my bed, listening to the sounds of the rain hitting my window. Ever since Clare passed a week ago, I haven't left my bed. I hold my phone close to my chest, a small part of me hoping that it will ring and Clare's voice will be on the other side. I haven't eaten, haven't said a word. My parents try to comfort me, but I tune it out. This is Julia all over again.
When the doctors told me of my love's passing, I broke down in tears and curled up into a ball. I cried for a good two days nonstop. When it was time to go to Clare's funeral, it was the only time I moved. After everyone had left, I sat next to her headstone. I inhailed the smell of the newly planted earth under me, knowing how much Clare would like the smell.
Adam, Imogen, Becky, Fiona, Jake, K.C., and Drew were the only Degrassi students who stayed with me after the others left. They put flowers on her grave and said their goodbyes. When they were finished, they gave me a moment of silence with my beloved. I thought of all the good times we had had together. I remembered when I ran over her glasses, when she kissed me at the Frostival, when she called me during her break down at the hospital. All the memories came over me. I, Elijah Goldsworthy, knew I would never see my love again.
When I got back home, I went straight to my room and took nothing from my parents. I started crying again, letting the tears cloak me in a warmth only Clare brought me. I put on some music in hopes that it would help me understand why this was happening to me. Again, might I add. The first song that came on was a very beautiful song called Shattered, by Trading Yesterday.
And that was and is exactly how I feel: Shattered.
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