Will be going in the Rolivia direction. Rated T for now. Rating may change in later chapters. First story so helpful hints/suggestions are more than welcome :)
Amanda was settling in just fine in New York. She'd been with the 1-6 precinct for 6 months and no one even knew about her previous job as U.S Marshall, Annie Frost. It wasn't long until she'd almost forgotten about her past career and life. She had made good friends with most of the squad, and her partner Fin was the big brother she never had growing up. John Munch was the comedian in the squad with his conspiracy theories. He always had a joke of some sort to tell. Captain Cragen was a father figure to her. Nick Amaro came from narcotics shortly after Amanda, and the two could never really agree on anything. It ended up with them agreeing to disagree. Then there was Olivia Benson, who disliked her for the first few weeks, but slowly came around. They had bonded and become best friends. Amanda had fit in so well, it was like she had always been there.
It had been a long day of following unhelpful leads from the last night's case which kept them all at the precinct. Amanda was starting to feel completely drained and desperately wanting hot shower. It was 6pm, "I'm calling it a day. Will see you all in the morning." she stated as she started grabbing up her things to head home.
"Hold on a minute!" she heard Olivia yell, "I'll walk you out." Amanda shrugged and patiently waited for the senior detective to get ready. 'Why is she walking me out? Did I do something wrong today? This never happens…' These thoughts raced through her head while desperately trying to figure it all out.
"Do you wanna grab a drink?" Olivia asked. "It's been a long 24 hours, I need something other than coffee, and I could really use the company."
"Ummm...Sure. I don't want to be out too long though, I'm kinda tired." Amanda responded feeling very uneasy.
"Great! Where would you like to go?"
"Anywhere but Malone's" Amanda groaned, knowing if they went there they'd risk running into the rest of the team and be out late. They ended up just grabbing some beers and heading to Amanda's place. "This is a nice place" Olivia commented when walking through the door. It had white painted walls with green trimming. Straight ahead of the door was he kitchen, there was a center bar dividing the living room and the kitchen. Then to the right of the living room was the bedroom and bathroom. "I'm not done with it just yet. I still need to add things, never really have time to unpack." She commented while pointing to the corner with 4 unpacked boxes. "I'll help if you like."
"No, that's alright. I'll get to it eventually. I mean, this could just be a temporary place. I can't say I will be staying." Olivia just frowned at this comment. "Just make yourself at home." Amanda said as she walked into the kitchen to grab some chips to go with the beer. She sat down and turned on the TV to find something to watch.
"Hey, I really need to talk to you about some things." Amanda just stared at her after swallowing hard as Olivia said those words then just nodded. "Well, for one, I really hope you stay, you're a good detective. Two, is something that's really hard to talk about, let alone tell you. Look, I don't want this to ruin anything we have; I just need to get it out in the open..." Olivia paused trying to find the right words so things didn't get too awkward.
"Whatever it is, you know you can just tell me, I doubt there's much of anything you could say to make me hate you." The younger detective said trying to encourage her to get the words out.
"Amanda, I... I think... I think I might be falling in love with you..." she finally said. *No response from Amanda* "I don't want what I said to change anything, especially if you don't feel that way. I can control it, I just thought it should be out in the open." she quickly said trying to get the blonde to at least look at her.
"I get it, I understand, It's not that I haven't thought of it, it's just not a great time. I mean really, what do you know about me? And I don't know too much about you. If it doesn't work out, or if it does, how would our work be affected? Also, not knowing if I'm going to be staying. There's too many 'What ifs' at the moment." Amanda tried to explain without hurting the Brunettes feelings. "I do care about you a lot. I just don't want to get into anything that may end up resulting in one of us getting hurt." "Okay" Olivia understood exactly what she was trying to say. They spent the next few hours watching movies while making small talk. Olivia told her some of her life and in return she told Olivia about her childhood and pieces of her life before New York. It was almost one before they realized the time.
"Why don't you stay here? I have some clothes that will fit you. It's too late to be walking home anyway." Olivia smiled at the offer and happily accepted. She changed then headed for the couch. "Where you goin"? Amanda asked confused.
"I was going to go to bed." she responded.
"We're both adults, and believe me, that couch is not comfortable for sleeping. Besides, my bed is a California king. We could both sleep in it and still not touch." Amanda smiled. They laid down drifting to sleep almost immediately.
*BANG BANG BANG* Amanda slowly opened her eyes trying to figure out where all the noise was coming from. *BANG BANG BANG* She looked at the clock by the bed. "Only 6am... who the hell shows up this early..." she mumbled while stumbling out of bed, grateful Olivia was sleeping through it. "I'm coming!" she yelled from the living room. She unbolted the door, swung it open only to find Jimmy on the other side. Her mouth opened a couple times but the words never came out. Amanda was in shock...