disclaimer: if you recognize it, it's JK Rowling's if not it's mine
Chapter 1: The mind of a desperate man
I'm
so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And
if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
cause
your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too
real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
When
you cried I wiped away all of your tears
When you'd scream I
fight away all of your fears
And I've held your hand through all
of these years
But you still have
all of me
You used
to captivate me
By your resonating life
Now I'm bound by the
life you've left behind
Your face, it haunts
My once pleasant
dreams
Your voice it chased away
All of the sanity in me
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too
real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
When
you cried I wiped away all of your tears
When you'd scream I
fight away all of your fears
And I've held your hand through all
of these years
But you still have
all of me
I've
tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're
still with me
I've been alone all along
When you cried I
wiped away all of your tears
When you'd scream I fight away all
of your fears
And I've held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
all of me
It was his first day back and Harry Potter was sitting at his window staring out into space he didn't know what was worse being stuck at Privite Drive, or being in the wizarding world. He didn't want to go to the wizarding world because he would remind him of Sirius and he still needed time to heal. He hated being at Privite Drive for the summer but he now knew why he had to stay here and that made it ten times worse. He was stuck here because of a stupid prophecy, and stupid Dumbledore who flaunts his mothers sacrifice for him, to get him to stay at the Dursleys' for gods sakes, Who is he to play god why does he meddle in things that aren't his affairs?
'Oh Sirius I'm so sorry what am I to do, I hate having to stay here it's a hell hole even after the order told Vernon and Petunia to lay off of me, now they are making it a living hell for me. Instead of laying off they make me do more work and I get less food, than before. And what of the order I get a letter today saying that they have no intentions of backing up their threat they are a bunch of spineless liars if you ask me'
That's when he decided he wasn't gonna take it any more.
"I'm leaving" he thought
"Yeah I'm leaving and Dumbledore and his stupid order will never be able to mess with my life anymore I am NOBODY'S pawn, in this game of chess we call life. Starting now this very instant I'm leaving England for the summer and training myself to be ready for the final showdown, and no one will be able to find me. I know Sirius had to have left me something, I know he loved me and after he died I'm sure he left me something, anything to use. I'm going to learn both light and dark arts, as well as many abstract forms of magic. Who classifies magic anyway, magic is neither good nor evil, light nor dark It has no master, why do people think someone can be a "minister for magic"? If it will be Voldemort or me, and I intend for it to be Voldemort,"
"Do you hear me you filth your days are numbered, you will be afraid and I will never give up till I see you dead by my hand."
I've got to find a way out of here now, but this requires some planning, I'm not going to be manipulated, so I think I'm gonna need a list of things to buy.
1.) A disguise
2.) Money
3.) New Wand (Knockturn Alley would be a good place to find this)
4.) Powerful Books of all kinds
5.) A place to hide (Possibly outside of the country)
6.) Possibly tutors (I know many people who would love to teach the Harry potter)