If Nothing Else
Rating: PG-13 (warning strong language used)
Pairing: Derek/Addison
Spoilers: None
Summary: Derek had thought that if nothing else he could say he had gotten back at her. Funny thing was... didn't work out that way.
Disclaimer: I own nothing!
Author's Note: I just kind of had this idea bouncing around in my head about the very first night Derek slept with Meredith. What was really going through his head? I want you to know that I am only going off of my viewing of S1 and S2 so I am not going to say it will be compatible with things learned in later seasons.
Chapter 1
The fresh morning air of Seattle hit Derek in his face. It made it easier for him to focus on what he needed to do. The night before had been a rough one and as he stood on the porch of a home that was not his, it fully hit him; the gravity of what he had done came crashing down upon his shoulders.
He brought up one of his hands and ran it over his face before running it angrily through his dark hair.
"Fuck." Derek whispered to himself.
He started down the steps and walked along the sidewalk until he found his car. It was the rental car that he had been using until he found something a little more suitable for him in his new town. Derek had left his own Mercedes in New York and once he had arrived in Seattle, a rental was his only option.
He opened the door and felt the rain on his hand make it slippery.
The noise it made as it slammed closed made his head hurt. Derek supposed that he had had more to drink the previous night than he remembered.
It was that drinking that had landed him in this mess of waking up in a strange woman's house. A woman whose name he must not have asked for last night considering the fact that only mere minutes ago they had exchanged such pleasantries.
Derek put the key in the ignition and turned it until the engine roared to life.
As he started to navigate the Seattle streets on the way back to his residence the impact of his actions just hit him harder and harder. In all honesty, though, it was not just the drinking that had landed him there. In the spot he was in at this very moment.
It was because of her.
The woman all of his actions came back to since he met her, pretty much. The woman his life and his heart had revolved around for years now.
He had been getting drunk on a regular basis since he had come to Seattle. Derek had been trying to forget what had driven him across the country. It just seemed that the more alcohol he consumed the angrier he got.
The alcohol did not make him forget about it… it made him remember it thus making him seek out a way to let out his frustrations and all of the other pent up emotions he had.
So he had thought… maybe it would make him feel better to do to her what she had done to him.
Derek realized that he had been dead wrong.
Instead of feeling triumphant he was feeling defeated and depressed. The truth was that he felt like he had cheated on his wife. And he was starting to realize why he felt that way.
Even though he was no longer with her… in his heart Derek was still married to her.
"Fuck."
End of Chapter 1.
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