hey guys! i absolutely love degrassi so i'm making a Cam Fanfic, Cam's story really hit close to home considering My bestfriend lost her brother to suicide. Although degrassi's ending for Cam was completely amazing, and tearful. I decided mine would be different, xox bye.

Cam.

I walked through the halls of my school, My arms we're stinging under the red ice hounds sweater i was wearing, coated with cuts I shivered at the thought of what I had just did to myself. I was snapped out of my thoughts by a smiling-familiar-face.

"Cam! Why didn't you text me back this morning, Katie was giving me a ride and said she would drive you to" She says beaming.

I glance down then try to think of a excuse.

"I-uh.. my phone died.. " I mutter. It's not like I could say 'Oh sorry Maya, I was to busy cutting my wrists like the freak I am.'

She nods her head then glances down, her eyes look pained and I furrow my eyes in confusion.

"Cam, I really needed to tell you something," she whispers.

oh great, I think. "C'mon Maya, what is it?" I ask impatiently.

She puts her hand on my shoulder.

"When- Uh- When we broke up... I-I...Cam, I kissed Zig" She rambles.

I stare, my eyes widening. I shrugged her hand off my shoulder and back away. "I can't.. Maya, I'm done!" I yell. Concerned glances from other students we're shot my way as I stumbled off.

she cheated on me. she cheated on me. she hates me. i'm a freak. i should die. maya would be better off without me.

Thoughts we're running through my head as I ran to the roof, jumbled and confusing I pushed the door open letting out a loud scream as it slammed behind me.

I reached for a small box in my pocket, slipping the lid off I took out a small blade. I placed it gently against my arm, and pulled it across. A line of blood appeared and started dripping down. I started doing it over and over again, my arms coated in blood I walked to the edge of the roof, I started to lean forward when I heard a loud crash. Turning around I saw two of the last people I expected to be up here looking for me.

Dallas and Luke.

"Cam..stop..." Whispered Dallas inching forward.

"No, why should I? This world would be better off without me." I whisper.

"Why shouldn't you?.. You have all these people in you're life, The rest of the team, you're family!" Yells Luke.

"It's too late anyways." I whisper turning around and beginning to push my self forward, when suddenly I fell to the roofs ground, ontop of me was Luke.

I tried fighting back, but soon fell limp. Sighing in defeat I let a few tears fall.

I push my back against the roofs ledge, Luke and Dallas sat on either side of me.

"Cam..." starts Dallas.

Luke removes his sweater and hands it to me.

I glance up confused and see that mine was laying on the ground, soaked in blood. Hastily, I took it and slid it on.

"Don't tell anybody.." I whisper, breaking down. I could see Luke and Dallas exchange glances.

"We won't..." I sigh in relief. "As long," here we go. "As long, as you don't do this" He says nodding towards my arms. "Again."

I think about it, then nod. "How'd you know I was here anyways?" I ask.

...They glance at each other again, then point towards the door, which was know open, showing a nervous looking Ali Bendari.

"She saw you run up here and got nervous, came to me and i got Luke" He says.

I nod my head then stand up, Luke and Dallas follow and lead me out.

"We're going back to my house, Okay Rookie?" Whispers Dallas as he walks out of the school, beside me, is luke and Ali trailing behind.

"I could've died"

i wish i died.