I walk this pointless death filled life
I live this pointless death life
I see the pointlessness of strife
once long ago my body was whole
once long ago I possessed a soul.
Once very long ago I truly lived
some times I remember
sometimes I forget
sometimes its December.
Death surrounds my actions
Death is my actions
Death is my salutations
love is my nightmare
love is my dream
love is my undying wish
my son hates me
my son doesn't know me
my son was hidden from me
all my days are spent in disbelief
disbelief at myself the monster
only once was I free of the monster
a child blue eyed short and very much loved
lived a peaceful happy life once long ago
before the virus hatched inside...