Rated T for swearing and child abuse. Disclaimer: I don't own Big Time Rush, or else it would still be going. Anyways, I got this random idea while watching Big Time Strike.

Kendall's POV

I woke up in a sweat and my heart racing. Another one of those nightmares. It's been a while since the last one—I think it's been a couple years. I was thirteen and I can remember waking my mom up screaming the house down at three in the morning. I can remember her trying to calm me down for hours. And they weren't as bad as the ones I had when I was eight.

But I guess it's getting better since I didn't wake up screaming. But then again, I'm sixteen now. It's been what? Eight years now? I really just hope this is a one reoccurrence thing. I don't know if I can deal with them coming back again for a while.

And I certainly did not want the guys to ask questions.

I took a sip of the water that was on my night table and then tried to go back to sleep.

The next day I was a bit tired. It took a while for me to get back to sleep, but I've been worse before. I've gotten almost no sleep because of those dreams. So I'd be okay.

"Kendall—you okay?" Logan asks me and I nod. "You sure?" He asks and I nodded again.

"Just tired. Didn't get too much sleep last night, but don't worry about it." I tell him and I hope he doesn't ask because I didn't want to tell him. What if he asked what my dreams were about? I didn't want any of them to know about them.

We went to the schedule around noon as Gustavo was having record our new song. Apparently Griffin wanted the new track tomorrow so we had to hurry up and get it done. We practically pushed us all into the booth and we were sounding great—at least my perspective—but then on the chorus I started to sing off key.

Then I felt a shock of pain go through my body. I hadn't felt anything like that in so long. For what felt like hours, I just stood there frozen. I was snapped out of it when I felt Logan touch my shoulder.

"WHAT WAS THAT?!" I yelled.

"That was the new electro-shock system I had installed." Gustavo tells us. He just electrocuted us? Why was he doing that?

"Why?" James asked.

"You were off key. I'm going to start training you dogs through negative reinforcement." He says and I just couldn't bring myself to say anything.

"Kendall?" I shook myself out of it.

"KELLY!"

"Usually I would agree with you guys, but we do really need that song fast." She replies.

"…And shocking us is going to get it done faster?" I question. This couldn't be the only way to go. This could not be happening. He could not be doing this.

"Yes and we need this second album to be better than the first."

"Gustavo, I think we can get there without the shocking. We'll just work extra hard and I know this album will be better." I say, I probably could have continued, but my mind was blanking with the inspirational speeches. "What do you say?"

I felt the shock waves of pain go through my body, this time feeling more painful than before. That time Carlos and I fell over, but we got pulled up.

"Now you ready to sing it better this time?" Gustavo asks and I give him an angry look, but I don't say anything. I was trying not become a hot mess in front of everyone. And I certainly did not want to be shocked again; and he might do it.

We ran through again and again. He shocked us again because Logan and I sang the wrong words. And then again when we ran behind because after all those shocks, it was painful for all of us. Then finally we got through the song with both his and Kelly's approval. Then we went into the dance studio to practice and any time a step was out of place—he shocked us. Over and over again.

After what felt like the hundredth time, I just couldn't get off the floor. "Kendall get up or he'll press the button again." Logan says as he pulls me up and I lean on him, trying to breathe. We run through the dance again and he doesn't shock us.

He then left to get a coffee or use the bathroom—I didn't care. I went over to the couch in the break room and plopped down on it. I tried to catch my breath. I closed my eyes, trying to keep myself together.

I didn't know how much more of this I could take.

"Kendall—I don't know if he'll want us breaking—" Logan says.

"I—just—need—five—minutes." I said trying to calm down. I felt like if I didn't have a break right now, I wouldn't be able to breathe anymore.

"Is he okay? He looks worse than all of us?" I hear Carlos ask.

"He didn't sleep well last night, so it's probably the pain mixing in with the exhaustion." Logan says. They had no clue how bad it was for me right now, but I could get through. It would probably just be for today, right?

I hear footsteps, but I can't get myself to move. It hurts too much.

"NO BREAKS!" I hear Gustavo yell and then more painful shocks go through my body and I go onto the floor. He shocks the floor and we all yell. Probably because we weren't practicing while he was gone.

"STOP SHOCKING US!" I yell.

"It's only the first setting." Gustavo says.

"ONLY—YOU'VE BEEN SHOCKING US ALL DAY FOR SMALL MISTAKES, WHICH WE KEEP MAKING BECAUSE YOU KEEP SHOCKING US! I JUST NEEDED FIVE MINUTES—I CAN'T—YOU CAN'T DO THIS!" I yelled. I was so close to breaking in front of all of them, but I didn't care at the moment.

I sat down on the couch. I watched as Gustavo turned the switch a centimeter and then pushed the button. Only shocking me. I went to the ground, struggling to get up.

"Don't Back Talk Me!" Gustavo says.

"Gustavo, I think that's enough. Kendall—all of the guys have had enough of that." I hear Kelly say as I try to get up. But my hands and legs felt like jelly and my head was spinning. I couldn't breathe.

"No—I'm tired of him back talking me." Gustavo says and I manage to get up and I just stare at him. How could he be okay with doing this? "Anything else to say?" He asks me—sounding like a threat. I knew it was.

"Yeah." I say, moving away from the others. "I QUIT!"

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