It has been a year since Fine and I had started dating each other.
I remember the time where someone had pointed out that our names can make the words, "Shine" and "Fade".
But who was the person that pointed it out?
I do not remember.
Ever since they pointed out that our names could create this word, this question had always lingered in my head:
What would happen to us? Would our love shine, or fade?
I'm not sure what will happen. And I am also not sure of what the answers will be.
I'll know what my answer is one day.
One day.
How long has it been?
How long has it been since Shade and I had started to date each other?
Rein had pointed out that our names could made the words, "Shine" and "Fade", but at that time, I just thought that it was pretty cool, most likely a coincidence.
Now, I always ask myself this question:
What would happen to us? Would our love shine, or fade?
I had always answered the question with the word "Shine".
But now, I feel like it will fade.
But that's not going to stop me to try and make it shine.
How long has it been since the last time I did this?
I think it has only been a few weeks?
After reading the last letter that I wrote to myself, I am now sure about my answer to the question.
I want our love to shine, and not the other way round.
I don't know what I am doing anymore.
I am crying right now, soaking this piece of paper that I am writing on. I can't even see what I am writing that clearly because of all these tears.
It has been about 3 months since I wrote the last one.
Shade and I had a fight, and I'm now crying over it.
What have I done wrong?
I feel like an idiot.
I don't know if I can keep on going.
I think the answer is now fade.
But I am willing to give it one last try.
I will try one last time to make it shine.
I will probably lose this bet, but I'm willing to chance it.
It's the least that I can do.
And this time, I hope Shade will be able to take this bet on with me.
So, what's your answer? Will it shine, or fade?