A Mother's Love

I sit and look out my bedroom window
At a young fawn with its mother
The doe is encouraging her fawn to take its first steps
And even though they don't speak
I can see the love between mother and child

The love that I should feel
When I meet my mother's gaze
But all I get is fear and rejection shining in her eyes
I show her love in my gaze
But she refuses to see how much she means to me

I wish I was that fawn
Living in the forest
Sheltered from the world
By a mother's love
But my wish does not come true

And I'm still sitting in my room
All alone and unloved
But in my heart I know
My mother is not to blame
For the lack of love she feels for me

I am not what she wanted
And I'll never be
No matter how hard I try
It will always be the same
I will never see a mother's love in her sad eyes