Based of Evanescence's song, Missing. Listen to it on you tube while you read this.
Please, please forgive me. But I won't be home again.
You walk the streets. All alone. It didn't have to be this way for you. They could've treated you better. They could've asked you to stay.
Maybe someday you'll look up, and barely conscious you'll say to know one…Isn't something missing?
You know he doesn't know what he's missing. You know that since you left he hasn't dated anyone else. You know you were the only one who filled the hole.
You won't cry for my absence I know. You forgot me long ago! Am I that unimportant? Am I so insignificant!
You walk by his house, watching as he looks up at the ceiling, smiling to the beat of his iPod. He doesn't remember you anymore. He forgot 2 years ago when he drove you away.
Isn't someone missing? Isn't someone missing me…
The answer was no. No one missed you except him. He missed you, but your ex didn't. He cried for you, but you never knew. When you walked from them all you left him behind. Your friend. You failed to realize you left him behind. You ruined his life.
Even though I'm the sacrifice…You won't try for me no no!
Though I'd die to know you love me
I'm all alone
Isn't someone missing me?
The answer is yes. You don't know as you cut your wrists that he loved you all alone, but you were to busy yearning for his affection when he never loved you in begin with. But, you never cared for him. He was nothing to you.
And if I bleed, I'll bleed,
Knowing you don't care.
And if I sleep just to dream of you
And wake without you there,
Isn't something missing?
Isn't something...
He never cared. You had no idea that 3 months after you two were together, he cheated on you with your supposed best friend?
Wasn't something missing?
She's gone now…
You've committed suicide.
You're selfish, you're horrible. They didn't care but they never liked you to begin with. But he loved you, and now you've left him scared for life.
You're in the casket, in the ground, from which you will never rise. You died days ago, your deadly wounds on your wrists going unnoticed for months. No one saw.
He would have tried to save you if you had let him. He would have held you and taken you to the office of the Psychologist. He would have helped you all he could. But, you're gone now. There's nothing left.
He stands over your grave, tears running down his cheeks. He stares at the tombstone, wondering why he ever let you walk away. Of course, your ex that you wanted to miss you is away. He's with your friend now.
The one who always loved you while you were with him now stared at the cold gray stone, feeling guilt.
"I'm so sorry," He whispers. "I couldn't save you. I'm so sorry."
Your tombstone reads:
Dylan Alexis Marvil
Born August 11, 1996
Died September 25, 2008
Aged 16
Beloved of______
He looks at the blank and knows it should be him, not the one who never loved you.
Joshua Kevin Hotz loved you before you took your own life because of Chris Abeley.
Now look whose missing.