I don't own X-Men. This is just some random drabble I thought of, its not long at all. Comment if you like and enjoy.

Untouchable

I am untouchable, a freak among freaks. No one knows what it feels like, not been able to touch. I would give anything to just feel someone's skin, even for only a second.

I envy the girls, like Jubilee and Kitty, when it gets to summer they are all out in shorts and tank tops and there's me in jeans and a long sleeved top. I still get hugs off all my friends, but they're not the carefree ones everyone else gets. They are careful, because one touch from my skin can maim or kill.

Then there are the voices. At first the Professor thought I only gained the abilities of those I touched for a few hours, a few days at most depending on the length of contact. But we discovered differently later on. Turns out that while the outward signs fade I always have them with me, ready to call when I need them. The Professor has been working on controlling them, stopping random flashes of Logan's temper or Magneto's magnetic fields. It also helped control the nightmares, not mine, but of those I have absorbed. I've dreamt of Auschwitz, mutant torture, so much pain.

My powers are strong now, I've absorbed some of the best gifts. Logan's healing and a bit of his temper, something that always stresses the mansion when it rears it's head. Then there is Magneto's magnetic field, always useful in a fight. It's kinda fun to have Bobby's ice and John's flame, two opposite elements in the same girl. Finally, I have some telekinetic and telepathic ability, though it is low level, this is due to brief touches from the Professor and Dr Jean Grey, when they were entering my mind to discover more about my new abilities. The briefness of the touch is the reason the abilities aren't stronger, but they are such a bonus I don't really mind.

Love and intimacy was something unknown to me, the untouchable girl. Bobby was never really much, I liked him a lot, but there was always something lacking. It was especially hard with him not being able to touch me at all. I think that's why he left me and took up with Kitty, he could touch her.

Then there's Logan, he saved me from the streets and kept me safe, he's always kept his promise and come back to the mansion, never failed to save me from the dangers that surrounded. He was never bothered by my skin much, forgave me when I had to touch him to heal the injuries from his claws and he even touched me himself, to save my life on Liberty Island.

But even though Logan is my best friend I've always had a desire for more, but he only sees me as a daughter or sister or friend. He's enamoured by Jean Grey and she is a lovely person, but she has Scott and still flirts with Logan all the time. It really isn't fair that she gets two men and I have no one.

I may have Logan for a best friend, Kitty and Jubilee as my friends and Professor X, Storm, Scott, Hank and Jean to help me with my powers, but I still lack that special someone most of the mansion has. I wonder if I'll ever manage to find that person, somehow I doubt that being the untouchable girl will help. I shall just have to hope.

I hope you liked the small insight into how Rogue could be feeling some of the time. Sorry if it's a bit depressing, I might do a Rogue/Logan that turns out happier.