Original Sin
(by Taylor Dane from The Shadow)
Songfic by Daemonchan
**WARNING** This story explores the dark
side of my favorite pilot. Lots of angst and adult situations. There's a
pairing too, but I'll let you find out. Also, I've edited the lyrics to fit
with the story, mostly just trimming out repeats.
[italics] indicates lyrics
~*~*~*~
Duo reveled in the darkness of the
street, avoiding the pale light of the streetlamps that attempted to drive the
blackness away. The concrete beneath his leather boots was wet with late evening
rain and garbage that collected in the gutters. To say that this was a bad part
of town would be a gross understatement. Any self-respecting criminal would
never be caught dead walking here.
Which is exactly why Duo loved it.
He had always felt attracted to the
darkest sides of the cities he had seen since his coming to Earth. The colonies
were just too small to become so…depraved. On Earth, people had found the space
to truly practice the fine art of Commandment breaking, burying themselves in
the filth of a thousand years of human misery.
The youth stopped before a painted door,
the bolts rusted and cracked. He knocked on the hollow steel, three short raps
followed by one hard knock. The panel swung open, admitting him into an even
darker foyer, where he removed his long leather coat. Underneath, his outfit
was hard pushed to be described as revealing. His shirt was the same deep
violet as his eyes, diaphanous material clinging to his every muscle. His tight
leather pants were laced up the sides, exposing a generous amount of his
thighs.
Duo smiled in the darkness as the jacket
was taken from his hand. Another door at the end of the foyer opened smoothly
onto a scene of carnal delight, bodies surging together in a mass of sexual
energy. He entered, leaving his outside self behind.
[I've been looking for an original sin
One with a twist and a bit of a spin
And since I've done all the old ones 'til
they've all been done in
Now I'm just looking and I'm gone with
the wind
Endlessly searching for an original
sin]
The music began with a slow piano, a
dusky voice leading Duo into the throng. Eyes studied his every move, following
the long line of his braid to the curves of his ass. He stopped in the exact
center of the room, swaying gently to the music. The piano gave way to a hard
beat, and guitar riffs filled the room.
He was hazily aware of the lyrics as he
danced hard, washing away every worry that had consumed him.
[And you can dance forever
You've got a fire in your feet
But will it ever be enough?
No, it'll never be enough]
Even as he danced harder, Duo knew he
could never truly escape his life outside the darkness. He could ignore the
fact that he was a Gundam pilot, one of five boys chosen to protect the known
world, but the truth would be there to confront him when the sun came up.
But here…here he was just another face,
another body to be desired by the hungry eyes of those who preyed on those who
came seeking this kind of escape. Here
he could drop all pretenses and become one of those predators. He could give
into the darkness he kept at bay with his bright smiles and endless wit.
[And you can fly and never land
And never need to sleep
But will it ever be enough?
No, it'll never be enough]
He held no illusions about why he snuck
out to these kinds of bars night after night. The other pilots might buy his
excuses the next day, but they never really understood why he found such places
so cathartic.
Mostly, it was to play…to take one of
these boys and break his heart as Duo's had been broken so many times in his
youth. A revenge of sorts. He ached for the pleasure of having another's
emotions in the palm of his hands, to have some measure of control in his own
chaotic life that hung in the balance every time he climbed into the cockpit of
his Gundam.
He craved the exhaustion that followed
his nights here, the utter giving of himself to the darkness.
[It's not enough to make the
nightmares go away
It's not enough to make the tears run
dry]
The words of the song struck a chord
within Duo. No, what he did here was create an illusion for himself. The
nightmares still came…the tears still fell when he thought no one was around.
He could dance as fast he wanted, but he
still had to face himself in the morning.
[And who knows what evil lurks in the
hearts of men today
It's a city of shadows, it's a city of
lies
It's a city of secrets, it's a city of
cries]
Here in the darkness he could forget the
faces of the men he'd killed; the boys who had died for someone else's evil
plans. A smirk twisted Duo's mouth.
He was familiar with the evil of the
world, mostly from his childhood on L2. There he had become one with the
darkness, and lived there so long, it had become a part of his soul. Returning
every so often never let him forget…the lecherous hands on his body, the
soldiers who had destroyed his life, what he had done to survive in the
aftermath…
[It'll all be over now
All I wanted was a piece of the night
I never got an equal share
When the stars are out of sight
And the moon is down
The natives are so restless tonight]
Bodies pressed against him, teasing him
to dance with them. Duo was tempted to give in, but held himself apart, dancing
to his own beat. This was his moment…a shining soul in the darkness. The denizens
of the club were drawn to him like moths, basking in his heat, in the hopes
that he would turn his attention on them.
He would choose his own partner…he would
seek out the heart he would break…
[All I needed was a spot in the light
It never had to get so dark
But when the stars are out of sight
And the moon is down
The natives are so restless tonight]
Duo scanned the crowd, delighting himself
by catching the lustful gazes of half the youths on the floor. He gave them
disapproving smiles and kept up his search. There was a flash of white and he
suddenly found himself staring into the smoldering brown eyes of a masked
youth, white poets shirt open to his navel and tucked into the top of a painted
on pair of pleather pants.
The boy stared into Duo's deep violet
eyes, smooth black hair falling gently about his olive skinned face. Without a
word he began to dance, his body melding with the lithe American. Duo said
nothing, a cruel smile crossing his beautiful lips.
~So it begins~ he thought, his hands going around the other's neck and
drawing him close.
[I've been looking for the ultimate
crime
Infinite victims, infinitesimal time
And not so, so very guilty for no
reason or rhyme
Now I'm just looking and I'm killing
some time
Endlessly searching for the ultimate
crime]
Duo could feel himself losing to his
inner demons, passion driving him to continue to tease his partner with the
curves of his body. In order to survive on L2, the young American had become
the master of breaking hearts, leading on his marks until they gave into his
every whim. His body was his weapon, and he used it without mercy.
His dark partner responded with equal
passion, a predatory smile crossing his olive features. "Maxwell. Why do you
torture yourself so?"
Duo was taken aback by the deep voice,
stopping for a heartbeat as the music washed over him. "Wufei?"
[You can lose yourself in pleasure
Until your body's going numb
But will it ever be enough?
No, it will never be enough]
"I dance to forget. I live for the
pleasure that comes at the end of the night. It lets me know I'm alive."
His partner smirked. "Does it help?" He
leaned forward to kiss the American lightly on the lips. Duo moaned at the
shock that passed through his body at the gesture. "To submerge yourself in the
darkness you fight against?"
The Chinese youth spun Duo around until
he was pressed against the muscular chest. Duo could feel the barely contained
erection straining against the pleather and felt himself respond in kind.
[It's not enough to make the
nightmares go away
It's not enough to make the tears run
dry
And who knows what evil lurks in the
hearts of men today
It's a city of shadows, it's a city of
cries]
"Wufei…"
He was silenced by another kiss. Wufei
reached up and removed his mask, throwing it aside. "I know why you run away,
Maxwell. I know why you are drawn to the darkness…"
Duo tried to pull away but was held by
the other's iron embrace. Wufei brushed the stray chestnut strands from his
cheeks. "I followed you here, two nights ago. I watched you. I watched you
dance. I watched you seduce that boy and leave him crying…"
Anger colored the American's pale cheeks.
"What the hell would you know, Chang?" He put as much venom into his voice as
he could, trying to draw the other boy into a fight.
Wufei merely smiled, his hands trailing
down Duo's chest. "I know what it's like to feel numb inside. To hope that you
can find something in pleasure and hope you can hurt back just as much as you
hurt inside." His hands reached down to cup Duo's ass, grinding his hips
against the American's. "Sound familiar?"
[I've been looking for an original sin
One with a twist and a bit of a spin
And since I've done all of the old
ones 'til they've all been done in
Now I'm just looking and I'm gone with
the wind
Endlessly searching for an original
sin]
Duo didn't answer. Wufei's words were
painfully true, and Duo knew that the other boy spoke from experience. He knew
exactly what Duo sought every time he returned to this club and danced until he
could barely stand.
He pressed his lips to Wufei's, hungrily
seeking the other's moist tongue. Wufei returned the passion and began to dance
again, hands guiding Duo's hips in time with his own. They broke the embrace
and lost themselves in the music, bodies so close it was hard to tell where one
ended and the other began.
[I'm applying for a license to thrill
Going out on the edge, moving in for
the kill
And there'll be hell to pay someday
Put it all on the bill
'Cause we'll always be paying, and
paying until
We're beyond expiration
With a license to the thrill]
Here in this world on the edge of
humanity, Duo could let go of the morality that held him in check, the beliefs
that he was responsible for the lives of the people of Earth and the colonies.
Wufei smiled at his American partner. "Your
sins have been paid in full. Maybe now you can live in the light."
Duo laughed and gave Wufei his famous
smile. "Probably. But who would want to?"
[I've been looking for an original sin…]
~*Owari*~
