Why is my heart so exhausted from crying?
Why do I hate myself so much?
When I look at the smile on the faces of people passing by,
I can't help wondering if they're laughing at me.
Why am I breathing?
I wish these pains would cease.
Somebody, please save me.
My heart is screaming out of loneliness.
Even when I try to put up a tough front...
Please find me soon.
Why is it that I'm still rejecting people...
Even when my heart is crying from loneliness?
Perhaps there won't be a single person who will cry for me,
Even if I was to vanish from this world tomorrow.
Another "me" is lamenting and screaming out,
That she wants someone to cherish.
Someone to laugh together, and cry together.
I've made some friends through the help of electronic devices.
Inside the dimly illuminated miniature garden.
It's easy to grow distant, but it's also easy to get too close.
If they become annoying, I can simply push them away.
But I've come to realize my unsatisfied existence.
Don't you want to throw away yourself to be reborn?
Right now, I'm scared even of the small ripples.
And I'm hesitating, unable to touch them.
I cannot possibly become "my real self" that I've secretly yearned for.
Get a grip. Open your eyes.
Do you see me smiling in the mirror of other people's hearts?
Give your own back a little push.
I'm going to fade away, but I will forever watch over you.
~My True Self (VERY APPROXIMATE LYRICS. Extracted from .)