Nightmare

by Waiting for my Munkustrap

I knew something was wrong, the moment I stepped into the den. The day outside was bright and sunny and happy, but the moment I stepped into the den...everything changed. I felt a sense of dread wash over me. I had to be imagining things, though, right? It was just like any other day. I was coming home to see my queenfriend.

"Demeter?" I called out, sounding shakier than I had hoped. He presence would calm me, though. It always did. I loved her.

When I received no response, I looked around. To my left, nothing. To my right...

Oh no.

Oh, Everlasting Cat.

Why didn't I see it coming? I knew Demeter was depressed. I knew she had debilitating flashbacks and needed support. I tried my best to give it. Where had I been, when she needed it the most? How did I not see this coming?

Maybe it was an accident, I told myself, as I rushed to her side. Anything to keep myself from panicking. Anything to save myself from the truth.

I cradled her body in my arms. "It's okay," I told myself. "It's okay. She'll be fine. She'll be fine."

My paws were shaking, as I picked that little, amber bottle up from the floor. Turning it around, my fears were confirmed. I didn't even know what I was doing; I just threw it. I just knew, in that moment, I had to get rid of whatever piece of shit that was that was killing my queenfriend right before my eyes.

"Deme, Deme, Deme... Why? Why? I love you so much."

I didn't even know if she could hear me. I realized with a start that she wasn't breathing. I grabbed her wrist to check for a pulse. It was there, but faint. So, so faint.

I needed help, but I could barely think, so I did what my most base instincts told me to do and screamed. I screamed as loud as I could.

I picked Demeter up with strength I didn't even know I had and somehow managed to stumble outside, still shouting unintelligibly. I couldn't even tell you what I said. All I know is that Jenny was by my side in an instant, but it felt like an eternity, staring at Demeter's lifeless form. I managed to say that she poisoned herself, and Jenny whisked her away. I tried to follow, but I couldn't. I just couldn't. I curled up on the ground and screamed and cried. My worst nightmare was coming true.