so i'm kinda supposed to be writing more chapters for another story but got side tracked...this story takes place after last sacrifice btw

Dimitri and I were walking hand in hand over to Lissa's dorm to see what she was up to, I was still getting used to the fact that I couldn't just slip into her mind and find out. I had been relying on the bond to keep track of her and protect her, and now that it was gone I was happy that I was my own person again, but I couldn't ignore the fact that if we somehow got seperated there would be no way of knowing if she was in danger or if she needed me. Her 'perfect' guardian was no more.

"What's wrong Roza?" Dimitri asked releasing my hand and instead looking me straight in the eyes. I couldn't hide anything from him, he knew me too well but that doesn't mean I wouldn't try. I didn't see the point in bothering him with my insecurities about my guardian duties at the moment so I lied by simply saying nothing and returning his gaze. Just as he was about to question me more I bumped into someone.

"Hey, watch it!" They said not even looking up. The strong smell of alcohol wafted into my nose as they had opened their mouth to speak.

"Sorry," I responded, embarrased that I hadn't even been watching where I was going as all my attention had been focused on Dimitri.

"Oh, it's you," They said in disgust to which I actually turned to face them. It was Adrian and he looked awful, his hair was an absolute mess and he didn't look like he'd shaved in a week.

"Adrian I-I didn't see you," I stammered, suddenly feeling guilt ridden over our last conversation.

"Of course you didn't. Don't worry Rose, I'll save you the trouble and toss myself aside so you can move on with your perfect life that's filled with your perfect boyfriend." He said half walking, half stumbling around me and Dimitri. This needed to be sorted out. Adrian was drinking himself to death, not to mention the cigarettes.

"Dimitri I have to g-"

"Rose, he's drunk. Wait until he's snapped out of it,"

"He won't, he's just gonna keep on drinking. I have to sort this out. Now." I said walking off after Adrian before Dimitri had time to respond.

"Go away little dhampir, I'm not in the mood" Adrian told me after I had caught up with him. The way he had said 'little dhampir' made my heart drop, it was no longer filled with affection but with sadness.

"Adrian, you can't keep doing this to yourself"

"Don't give me that crap Rose. I think you made it quite clear who you care about, and you know what I realised?" It was obviously not going to be good, but I still felt the need to ask.

"What?"

"That I shouldn't have been so astounded at your aura when I was dream walking. I should've known it was because of him. That he was the only one that could still make your aura shine. That even though you had reassured me again and again that you did not love him anymore, you did. And that I would never be able to take his place, and have your heart as you had mine. Was I not enough for you? Was I not good enough for the oh so high and mighty Rose?" I was at a loss for words.

"Adrian, I-I, I'm sorry. I didn't mean for it to happen, it just did."

"Somehow Rose, sorry isn't going to cut it. So unless you wish to share how you kept your love for him so deep down and hide it so well, piss off." I stopped walking abruptly and just stood on the path, left behind in Adrian's trail.