Author's Note: The characters of the story is property to General Hospital, ABC. This is my little insight of how Niz should become. I really don't know how it unravels I'm just letting it tell me along the way as I write. So come tag along for the ride. Enjoy! Also posted on Unexpected Chemistry - A Nikolas & Elizabeth Forum

Can't Escape This Love

The angst… it's too hard to compromise. I want him so bad…my lust is raw with need as my heart beats expectantly. I sleep with a man that I nestle his ring around my finger soon to be once again his, but day in and day out I want another man. She plays with the rock of an engagement ring as she turns away from her fiancé. She cradles her pillow and stares out the window, her back to him. Her mind wanders into the night about the other. What was he doing? Who was he with? Is he wide awake thinking of me too? The questions all poured out as it became hard to sleep. She heard Lucky moan in his sleep then reached for her bringing her fully into his body. He wrapped around her then sighed still fully sleep. She couldn't help but cozy into his embrace and smile a little. She was after all his fiancé, his lover, his best friend, and the mother of the children that he dearly loved and raised. Why couldn't she just love Lucky the way he wanted her to, the way she use to. Only at night she let herself acknowledge the truth, she hasn't really loved Lucky since he betrayed her with Maxie. Since she fell for the blue eyed mobster and had his child. So much history between the two, her and Lucky could right their relationship into a novel, pages and pages of their tales of history. After she lucked out of love with Jason, she knew she wouldn't be able to love like that again, but here she was feeling that kind of dangerous exciting love, for the wrong man. She eased out of his arms again the realization that she was falling for Lucky's brother didn't settle well with her. How could it, he was suppose to be her best friend, her brother in law, her dead best friend's man, anything but what Nikolas was to her.

She slowly smoothed the quilt off of her body and slid out of the bed without a squeak from the mattress. Lucky was sound asleep, turned over now, on his stomach breathing slowly. She crept out of their room in to the room near theirs. The door opens as she walked in and stood between both beds of her beautiful sleeping boys. Both different in small ways, Cameron the oldest, the joy in her heart, and who looked like her but had his father's features. Jake was his father's son, his real father. Every time she looked at him she couldn't help but think about what could've been. But she didn't care about that now, Jake was the good in the both of his parents and she cherished him for that. As she checked on the both of them, applying kisses on their cheeks and brushing their curly hair away from their face. She moved out into the hallway looking to her bedroom then turning away, heading down stairs quietly. She sat down on the couch, curling up as she let her eyes close and once again thinking… about him.

It was pretty late, but she bet he would be up, in their room, the room where he took her in. Just thinking about that night sent goose bumps over her arms. She felt less ashamed now that she wasn't thinking of another man while in bed with Lucky. She didn't want to hurt him, neither of them, she tried so many times to tell him the truth, but things have been getting out of hand, and she just couldn't seem to break his heart like that. She told herself countless time that she had to stop this and get ready for her marriage, but how could she, how can she stop wanting Nikolas? Elizabeth put her hands on her face, shaking her head as she became frustrated. "God knows I tried to stay away, I tried" she said in the still of the night. She looked up to the ceiling thinking she heard something; she waited for a few but only heard silence. She couldn't help herself as she reached for her house phone calling his number. By now she knew it by heart.

Sitting on his sofa legs spread apart, his body slouched back looking comfortable in his own way. His arm outstretched and his right hand cradling a half glass of wine, his head thrown back as his eyes were closed and his mouth slightly open in that sexy way of his. He wasn't sleeping, Nikolas was just brooding silently. Relaxing and thinking, it just appeared to look as if he was sleeping or past out drunk. But to tell you the truth he felt anything but drunk, he was still on his first wineglass. He was still dressed in his day clothes, with the exception of the suit jacket and his shoes slipped off. His black dress shirt had buttons undone and his cufflinks also undone and the arms of his shirt rolled up just about to his elbow. Yes Nikolas did his best to look comfortable and relaxed but he wasn't. He had Elizabeth on his mind and he couldn't get her out even if he wanted to.

The vibration of his phone hit near his ever grown hard on. It was in the crook of his pocket in his pants. It startled him, as he moved quickly, spilling his wine. He put the glass down on the table in front of him muttering then he fished his tight pants for his phone. He didn't need to look at the screen to know the caller; he flipped the phone open and spoke "Elizabeth" he sighed. He leaned back as he let a smile come to his face as his free hand came to his lap.

"Nikolas, were you sleeping? I'm sorry I called so late again, I just can't sleep" she told him already noticing the pattern of late night calls between the two.

"I wasn't sleeping, I was just thinking" his voice content and low.

Elizabeth looked around her living room making sure she heard silence up above her; she couldn't let herself get caught, not like this. "Where's Lucky?" she heard him ask. "He's sleeping" she quickly told him not wanting to discuss him.

Nikolas couldn't help but feel envy and jealousy course threw his body as he straightened his posture and flexed his fist. His brother making him feel uneasy, he can't stand to think of him with Elizabeth. "What were you thinking about?" Elizabeth dared herself to ask.

He relaxed again to the sound of her voice, her smooth creamy voice whispering in his ear. "You know what I was thinking about. You know because you think about it too" he told her sure of himself. Elizabeth curled up on her couch. "Yes I was thinking of you, and you was thinking of me?" she replied.

He nods before answering as if she could see. "Of course, you're all that's on my mind, but I was thinking about that time in here, our first time we made love. Elizabeth opened her mouth to speak but Nikolas continued. "Please Elizabeth not tonight, I don't need to hear how were hurting my brother, or how wrong it is, that we should be this and that, I'm sick of it Liz. I want you and I know you want me, just stop fighting it". They both were silent; Nikolas fuming wanting to barge over there and take her until she agreed that she was his and only his and Elizabeth worrying and thinking as usual.

"I want you" she finally whispered. Nikolas sat up; his eyes open becoming excited by her confession. "I can't stop wanting you, I can't look at Lucky the same way and I can't fall asleep without hearing your voice". She felt lighter as she whispered her confession. Even though she spoke low, Nikolas was up and pacing. He heard every word. "I need to see you, can I see you Liz?"

She let her eyes flutter close as his voice was sending chills over her skin; it became hard to think every time she heard her name from his mouth. "I… I can't see you now" "No not now, later today, maybe when you get on break or after work", Nikolas was scrubbing his face, and becoming frustrated again, "I don't know Liz; I just can't wait to see you". His heart was beating fast as he waited for her answer. "Yes… you can see me. I promised the boys after work I would take them to the park so maybe you and Spencer can meet us.

Nikolas walked back over to the sofa; he picked up the glass and tasted it. He closed his eyes as he heard her voice and the liquid of the wine slid strongly down his throat. He didn't expect that answer and it wasn't how he wanted to spend their evening but he had to take what he could get. He nods into the phone again as he licked his lips "sure the both of us will be there, don't stand me up again Elizabeth" he told her firmly as he remembered that other supposedly meeting at the park. "I'll play it your way, but soon you will realize that we can't stop this feeling for each other".

"Will see Nikolas, she turned towards the window seeing the sun rise. "I'll see you later; I have to go back to bed before he wakes".

"Wait, I wish you were here with me Liz, I wish a lot of things, and I know you're with my brother and were hurting him, but I can't help myself to care anymore… I need you" he professed. Herein those words from Nikolas mouth were a relief because she felt the same way. "Goodbye" she whispered back. "See you later" he replied as he ended the call. He stood up and went down to his bedroom, deciding to get well rested for this meeting. He hadn't slept in his bed in days. As she crept back in her room and noticed that Lucky was still sleep but in a different position now curled on his side and his back towards her. She slipped back under the covers quietly and turned away from him, smiling to herself as she lay on the pillow falling asleep.

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