Disclaimer: Characters belong to ITV1 and Emmerdale.
Author's Note: This is my first EVER fanfic, I loved Aaron and Jackson storyline, but HATED the outcome of it at the end. So this is my story that I would of liked to of happened. It's Basically a "what if Jackson didn't reach for his phone that night" I hope you like it.

Chapter 1

Jackson has been gone for a year and a half since the break- up of him and Aaron. He decided to take his mother's advice and go traveling for a bit. He is now coming back to Emmerdale Farm for his mums wedding.

The break-up: He never forgot how it ended, the way it ended. It started off a great night, but Aaron couldn't resist with his anger towards mickey, he had enough, he's gave Aaron plenty of chances. As he drove off in his van, tears running down his face with his mobile ringing constantly next to him, He knew Aaron would never change, he knew Aaron didn't love him back, he was heartbroken, Jackson loved him so much and all he wanted was for Aaron to love him back, but he couldn't do it anymore, there was so much he wasn't getting from Aaron, just to be a normal couple, with no violence.

(Flashback)

8th of October 2010 9:30am

It was the morning after; Jackson hadn't slept since he got back to Andy's flat. He ignored the 38 missed calls on his mobile from Aaron. As he put on his grey t-shirt, he heard the sound of knocking on the door, he stood frozen, thinking it might be Aaron, he wasn't ready to see him, not after what happened, just one look into those blue eyes, he might cave in. He listened carefully in his bedroom while his roommate Ryan answers the door.

"Alright gorgeous, is my boy about?"

A sign of relief showed on Jacksons face, it was his mum, Hazel. Jackson entered the sitting room and gave one look at Hazel and she knew right away there was something.

"Anyone fancy a cuppa?" Hazel asks the two boys in the room

"Nah, I better head to work before Cain goes mental" Ryan answers while heading out the door.

"Cya darling! I think he fancies me! Right, what about you? Thought we'd go to the café, tell me all the gossip about Paddy and Marlon getting lucky in a gay bar" Hazel laughs.

"Not today mum, think I'm going to hide out here for a bit" Jackson sighs, trying not to cry.

"Right! What's he done now? I'm telling you love, you're better off without that thug!"

Jackson sits down on the couch with his hands on his face." I'm so fed up with it mum; we were having a good night, a good laugh. I thought it was all over, I paid him off, but Aaron just couldn't help himself"

Hazel stars at her son with confusion and then anger

"What? Mickey?" She was sick of hearing his name and angry at Aaron for even thinking of starting something again with him after her son tired his hardest to put a stop to it.

"He came across him outside and he lost the plot, I gave him plenty of chances to walk away and come back into the pub to be with me, but of course he didn't listen"

Jacksons phone starts ringing, he picks it up and see's it's from the mechanic who broke his heart the night before. Jackson quickly ends the call and throws his phone onto the couch.

Hazel sits next to her son with a confused look on her face.

"Why do I get the feeling there's something you're not telling me?"

Jackson stands up and heads into the kitchen.

"Fancy a brew?" he asks his mum

"Yeah, why not. But you didn't answer my question?"

Jackson comes back into the sitting room, hands hazel her cup of tea and sits down next to her.

"We had a massive row, about mickey, about him, about us" Jackson says while fighting back the tears.

"About him not saying it back?"

"That's the thing, mum, he doesn't"

"Oh, don't be daft, that boy thinks the world of ya"

"No, he told me, he said he didn't, he doesn't love me"

Jackson couldn't fight the tears anymore and bursts into tears.

"Oh love, it's gonna be alright" Hazel hugs him tightly.

"I just don't know what to do anymore, I can't stay around here, seeing him all the time, it will be too hard".

"When I left your dad, I said to myself, I said hazel, you can stay here and wallow or you can do something about it and move on, so I packed a bag, headed to the airport and got on the first plane that was available, it was the best thing I ever done, gone traveling, it really clears your head. Maybe you should do that? Get away from here for a while, clear your head".

Jackson wipes his tears away with his sleeve.

"Your right" Hazel was right; he had to leave, the thought of him seeing Aaron every day broke him in two.

"Always am" Hazel says with a smug smile.

"I need to get away from here, but what about you?"

"I quite like it here, although will need to find another place to live"

Hazel grabs the two empty cups and heads into the kitchen. When she enters the sitting room, she sees Jackson stuffing clothes into a bag.

"Are you even going to say goodbye to him?"

"What's the point, mum? All he's going to say is the same things over and over again, I can't go through it all again, I just can't."

Jackson is ready to leave the flat, he hears the horn of his taxi, he takes one last look at Andy's flat and then he's out the door.

(End flashback)