Grey Days
Vera's May Prompt Challenge 2018 Prompt(s) when on dragon-shieldmaiden): "Don't leave me! (Sort of implied in an angsty sense of the word)
Genres: Romance, Fantasy, Friendship/Family, Angst/Drama Hurt/Comfort, Tragedy(due to this being from Natsu's/E.N.D's Perspective), Gothic fiction, and Poetry
Characters: Natsu/E.N.D, Lucy , Gray, Diamara, Igneel and ZerefPairing: Nalu/Endlu (Natsu x Lucy/ E.n.d Natsu x Lucy)
Rating: K-T for some violence, references to death, mature and dark themes. Reader Discretion is advised for those younger than 12 or 13 years and/or anyone who may not at the level of development (maturity) to handle such heavy subject matter . Side note: Please use your own judgement and proceed with caution before deciding to read If uncertain as to whether you're comfortable with such themes.
Summary: Without his most precious star and father's light, the demon of hellfire is lost—all days perpetually gray. For the loss of his beloved really does drive the heart mad. A retelling of the events surrounding Natsu's/E.n.d's transformation (chapters 503-505) from his perspective in poem form. Title taken from the song of the same name by Chelsea Wolfe. Originally For Vera's May Prompt Challenge and eventually Nalu angst week 2018 on previous accounts. Nalu/Endlu
A/N: Hey guys, it's your girl Millennial Stargazer (formerly known as twishadowhunter/ comsicdragonqizard/dragon-shield-maiden/star-crossed-dragon! I'm finally back under a new name (on fanfiction and tumblr as millennial-star-gazer) after months of forced hiatus due to personal extenuating circumstances (which can be explained via private message for those who already don't know why) This time it's an reupload of an installment in the wonderful universe of Fairytail—an angsty gothic little ditty retelling the events of chapters 503-505 and other related chapters mostly from Natsu/E.n.d's perspective which was originally as an entry for Vera's May Prompt Challenge and for Nalu angst week 2018 on my previous dragon-shield-maiden account (tumblr). As you may know, the title is taken from the evocative song of the same name by the lovely Chelsea Wolfe which has heavily inspired the poem.
Yes, I know there's been a lot of poems on my profiles, though I do also write other kinds of non-poetry works if my ongoing fics Tantric Flames and the Draconic Demon -soon to be reuploaded by the way- among others are anything to go by). Also partially by Within Temptation's The Heart of Everything plus the musical body of works from Peter Grundy (Bury My Heart) Brunuhville (River of Tears), Nights Amore (This Dreadful Emptiness , That Which is Called Void, Twisted Goa: Lone Deranger , and A Billion Stars Will Die Today) and Adrian Von Ziegler (Ashes, Twisted, Heaven's Touch, One, My Everything, Ethello-iel and Even in Death) who are all incredibly talented composers in their own right that you should check out! (The songs can be found by by clicking on the song titles or via google. Also see below for "Grey Days" if on Tumblr)
Anyway, I don't think y'all need me warning you that spoilers are present when it's already pretty apparent. Without further ado, here's the poem. Don't forget to let me know what you think by leaving a leaving comment/review. (Links to everything below, sidebar and bio if on tumblr plus Fanfiction profile). Enjoy!
Disclaimer: As you all know by now Fairytail does not belong to me, but the most honourable Hiro-sensei instead, for whom without this labour of love wouldn't be possible.
"Grey and holy
ou saidit was the first time
Like the morphine
You take it all away
Pretend it's okay
The grey days"
(Chelsea Wolfe: Grey Days)
"A lifeless lover was the high mountains"
Where we tried to reach the stars
The moon, the ways beyond
It was the purest love of all"
(Draconian: Pale Tortured Blue)
"If all else perished, and he remained,
I should still continue to be; and if all else remained,
and he were annihilated,
the universe would turn to a mighty stranger
(Heathcliff: Wuthering Heights)
"Natsu!
"The screams of his celestial maidenOh how, they call to the dragon of fire through the darkness piercing the shadows of his subconscious
Severing the ties that bind
His eyes open
The Gods of Time themselves defied
Damaria decimated in the blast
Scorch and crimson stains through tattered remnants of fabric on skin
All within the blink of an eye
Natsu's attempts to rouse the motionless angel in his arms fail when she does not stir
Scarlet tears a ghastly sight
No single heartbeat , nor breath of life he can hear
rVital signs so pined for falls on deaf ears
The perceived second loss of the brilliant star in his universe
drives him over the edge enough to fully awaken the infernal power within
Flashes of the two's life together before the demon's very eyes
River of tears flowing like cascading rain
A grief-stricken kiss of on the zodiac wielder's forehead of farewell
A piece of his soul here now dying right along with her
Oh how the agony of her absence cuts right down to to the bone
Soulmates , would-be lovers torn
asunder
All in all, The great divide all together just too much for the demon of black flames'
unholy, forlorn, heart to bear
How could it not be when the iridescent light of a billion stars was blotted out from the midnight sky?
Never to shine again
Oh, how the cursed fates are cruel
"Zeref, where is Zeref?
"The name of the fire demon's accursed brother spilling from his lip
over and like a non-nonsensical mantra as if he's a deranged mad man
Onward the song of Igneel trudges
Any with prying eyes from afar
may just see infernal darkness incarnate annihilate all
those who block his path fall at his feet in firey wake
Driven by bloodthirsty instinct to obliterate the creator
Forward E.N.D marches
on the hunt in search of his so-called dear brother
Eye for an eye
Tooth for tooth
Raging thirst for the other's blood
All in all vengeance apparent
The thought of meeting his inevitable demise
just barely crosses the prince of hell's mind
yet he cares not
For without the guiding, sacred light of his father and most dear friend
he is lost, all days perpetually gray
No tomorrow in sight
Totality of his desolate existence an infinite void
Devoid of meaning just the same
Reunited they all will at least be
in the the golden fields of Avalon
after his spirit departs
Just Lucy wait, Natsu tells himself
in his arms she soon will be on the other side
when he crosses the threshold
Watching over those so precious together
Instead of her buried along with his heart
six feet underground
Side by side at last
Apart nevermore
A figure, there standing
in the distance
the son of Igneel finally catches a glimpse
Is it the one he's been searching for?
No, just the ice devil slayer himself
Former brothers in arms , comrades in life
Mortal foes now, team mates no longer
Infernal hellfire and ice will clash
A rift far too vast to mend
Shattered remnants of a fraternal bond beyond repair
All for naught
Natsu's goal of sanguinary retribution clear
Purging the world of the one who started it all
Even it means cutting down almost any who stand in his way
The loss of etherious's beloved really does drive the heart mad
Delirium not overcome
Oh, but little does the demon know that his most
precious star lives
If only he could see
how she still breathes
Alive and well
Alas he does not
All is not lost
In the end, who alone will stop the volatile discord?
Who alone will be brave enough to be up to the task?
Oh, who alone will stop the clash?
A/N: Hope you all enjoyed! Just a few housekeeping notes in terms of clarification and reminders.
1. "Scarlet Tears" is one of the literary metaphors used in poem alluding to the blood stains under Lucy's eyes after Diarma attempted to scratch them out-unsuccessfully I might add (Thank God lol). The whole bit about regarding the stars being blotted out overall symbolizes Natsu's/E.N'D grief who feels that the world—or his world at least— has become that much less brighter without one of his best friend's light. Not to mention his existence ceasing to have meaning in the wake of so much loss—especially just one year after Igneel's death. Yes, he loves and cares for his other friends a great deal—especially Happy-, but losing them (with a few exceptions like said cat ) isn't quite the same as losing Lucy to death— at least not to the point as being as soulcrushing. I am by no means trying to downplay how much he values others in life—just offering my take since naturally the loss of someone is only futher magnified based on the nature of the relationship and how close you were which is no different for our favourite dragonslayer. In the end, Natsu/e.n.d ultimately would much rather be with Lucy and Igneel in the afterlife watching over their other friends in the afterlife than be without the former in the realm of the living—once he's had a chance to destroy Zeref with his bare hands (most likely using fire and whatever else he has at his disposal—Natsu I mean.) Just so you know ?.
2. To anyone who were following my other works on previous accounts , The Draconic Demon Within is a semi-au Nalu/Endlu fic in which it follows the original timeline of events from the manga and anime up until chapter 478 or so where Natsu saves Lucy from certain death by intercepting Jacob's attack just in the nick of time. After his brutal defeat is where the plot of TDDW deviates. In this fic, the original Team Natsu(Natsu, Lucy, Happy) soon gets word that the Tartaros has remerged with resurrected members and forged an alliance with the Alvarez empire they've (save a few such as Brandish)— all while overthrowing Zeref in the process now that they've gained total independence.
Natsu and Lucy are then lured to Tartaro's new base of operations (in part because said dragonslayer wasn't about to let his girl go barging in alone what with her being one of the people he's most protective of for obvious reasons and all) where they subsequently learn from Tempester that his (Natsu's) life is no longer tied to his brothers —which comes as a shock to you know who that it was mind you—; all this before an incantation is recited from a particular tome to fully awaken the demonic aspect of Natsu's identity from within now that the seal is broken. Pretty sure you guys know the rest for which the rest of the plot unfold as more chapters are posted. Just thought you guys should know in case anyone had any questions about the original timeline of the Fairytail series fits in with TDDW. I'll be sure to post this within the bottom A/N notes in the one chapters in the process of revison of said fic. Side note: I hope to start reposting while also uploading new chapters for both this fic, Tantric Flames and others in the works ASAP.
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