DISCLAIMER: I do not own His Dark Matierials, but I do own the poetry. It was inspired by notfallinginlove's 'Forgetting' so please go read that. It's fantastic!!
I Haunt the World Instead of Live
Separated by fate
We played into its hands
Falling so in love
Then giving into its demands
You couldn't live with me
Your soul would surely die
And I couldn't stay with you
Where the same fate lie
I miss you all the same
My heart beats painfully
Knowing that I have to go on living
Without you here beside me
I guess you're there in spirit
I still can hear your voice
But the specifics fade with time
A matter in which I have no choice
My smile is cracked and fragile
Fooling everyone but Pan
And I wish you'd be here with me
Cause you know who I am
I walk alone in a world full of people
Hoping something will make me forget
But nothing makes the pain abate
I haven't been okay since you left
WE found out our ways
Were killing our worlds
We tried to stop it anyway
But the damage had unfurled
The only way to save
Our distressed homes
Was to destroy gateways
And learn to walk alone
I haven't found a way to get to you
And I know I never will
Even though in some sense you're with me
This hole in my heart has yet to heal
So I guess I'll go on living
Cause that's what you'd want
For me to be happy again
And to live freely not to haunt