Best day of your life turning into a nightmare

There she sat holding onto the chair shaking trying to breathe through her tears, she looked down at herself she was covered in blood head to toe, her beautiful white dress smudge with his blood, She closed her eyes trying to compose herself she needed to focus and stop freaking out , he was going to be okay , he would survive he had too, they had just got married. She looked down at the now two diamond rings on her finger, knowing today was meant to be the best day of her life had turned into her worst nightmare. She didn't take notice at the looks everyone who walked past gave her, she knew she looked a mess and she didn't care all she wanted was to see him to see him alive.

"JJ"

JJ lifted her head up to see Morgan stood in front of her, she took her hands off the chair not knowing what to do with them, she just watched as they sat shaking.

"Yeah" she managed to let the words escape her mouth

"You okay?" Morgan walked closer to her noticing how shaky she was he didn't want to cross any line he knew she was upset but didn't want to push her.

"How is he?" JJ looked up at Derek another single tear falling down her cheek bone

"We don't know they still have him in surgery"

JJ closed her eyes squeezing her dress tightly letting her bloody hands interact onto her dress.

"He's …..he's gonna be okay right ! ?"

"I hope so"

"I need him I can…t I can't do this without him"

"I know how about we go get you cleaned up and we can go talk to the nurses again see if they will tell us anything !"

JJ nodded and watched as Morgan took hold of her hands helping her stand up, she slowly lifted out of the seat she had been sat in, as she stood up she lost her balance and fell into Morgan who caught her helping her stand up straight. JJ took a deep breath before letting Morgan guide her over to the team where Emily and Penelope took her into the toilets to help her clean up. She stood there staring at herself as they cleaned the blood off her face , hands and arms. She got lost in her thoughts trying to remember how it had happened how the most perfect day had turned into the worst day.

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Flashback

There she stood in front of the mirror running her hand down the lace of her dress she took a deep breath knowing today was going to be the best day of her life, the day she would finally get to marry him. She picked up the white Lilly petal hair clip placing it between the curls in her hair, she picked up her bouquet and headed down the stairs to see Emily , Penelope ,Hotch waiting for her. She slowly walked down the staircase her hand brushing across the banister .

"You look beautiful" Emily said

"Thank you" JJ smiled stepping of the last step.

There she stood waiting to walk down the long garden that was filled with people and flowers. She watched as Rossi walked up to her wrapping his arm through hers ready to walk her down the isle and as the music started they walked, that's when she saw him turn his head and took at her, all she could see was that smile that always made her heart jump.

There he stood holding in his nerves as Henry stood next to him talking to Reid, he heard the music start and turned his head with everyone else seeing the beauty he would soon call his wife, he looked at her dress a white long simple pattern strapless covered in diamonds , as her long blonde hair as pushed to one side onto her shoulder all curled attached to a Lilly flower. Then he took her hand as she stood next to him handing her bouquet to Penelope then it happened they said there vows and leant in for the kiss, entwining there lips together for seconds until he felt a sharp pain run through his chest, he pulled away holding his hand up as he fell to the ground, he could hear screaming, people running the team yelling at everyone to get down he could see JJ next to him holding the wound as Reid gathered Henry into his arms he could hear is son screaming for him , that's when it happened his eyes closed and everything went black.

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JJ opened her eyes as long tears fell straight down her cheeks down to the floor, she was brought back to realization when she heard someone saying her name.

"What sorry I…!"

"I said we need to get you out of this dress" Emily looked at Penelope with a worried look on her face

JJ nodded and unzipped the side of the dress and lifted her legs as Emily and Penelope lifted the dress from her, JJ took the jeans off Emily placing her legs in them slowly before pulling the long sleeved top over her head.

"Can I have a minute"

"Sure flowerpot we will be outside"

JJ walked towards the sink running the cold water over her face, she needed to be strong for Henry. She walked out of the bathroom and over to the team who were all sat waiting she looked down at Henry who was sat with Reid she noticed he was holding something, she walked over to him bending down in front of him.

"What you got there baby?"

"Daddy's hoodie"

JJ smiled at her son watching as he lifted it up and handed it to her, JJ took the hoodie from him putting it on, she took in his scent before she picked Henry up holding him in her arms as he buried his head into her neck.

"Daddy be okay?"

"I hope so buddy we just have to wait and see"

"Mummy me scared"

"I am too baby"

JJ kissed Henry's head and walked up and down with him until he fell asleep in her arms she looked down at the chair to see her bloody fingerprints marked into the chair. She took a deep breath snuggling up to Henry's head as she felt a hand on her shoulder, she looked round to see Hotch and the team staring at the doctor who was walking towards them. JJ took a deep breath kissing Henry's head once again.

"Lamontagne"

"Yes"

"He's stable for now , he lost a lot of blood and was very lucky" the doctor said looking around at all of them who stood in front of him

" Can I see him?"

"He's in recovery right now but yes"

"He's gonna be okay thought he will live?" JJ looked at the doctor with worry in her eyes she needed to hear it.

"Were keeping a close eye on him its hard to say right now like I said he lost a lot of blood and the bullet did a lot of damage"

JJ nodded handing Henry to Morgan he was still sleeping and she didn't want him to see him like this. She walked into the room her arms wrapped around her chest clinging onto his hoodie, she heard the machines beeping and looked at all the wires and tubes on his body, She sat down in the chair pulling it right next to the bed, as she picked up his hand squeezing it tightly.

"Will please , don't die on me okay I need you , we need you , you cant die on me or I will have to kill you myself"

She tried to keep strong but he couldn't she let the tears pour out the silence taking over the room as she sat and watched him breathe through the tube she didn't know how long she had been sat there for until she felt someone tugging on her leg, she looked down to see Henry stood sucking his thumb and Morgan stood next to him. JJ picked Henry up sitting him on her lap kissing his head.

"What that in daddy's mouth?"

"Its there to help him breathe at the moment he cant breathe without it"

"It help him !"

"Yeah its helping him"

JJ wrapped her arms around Henrys waist kissing his head feeling safe, she just hoped he would survive long enough to help her raise there son, she needed him more than anyone knew without him she was nothing he was the one who made her feel love who changed her for good and helped her believe that she could be happy and in love , he was proof of that and today she was ready to show that she did and now she was sat hoping she wasn't going to lose him, the love of her life.

Then it happened the heart monitor started beeping and the tears poured from all of there eyes.

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