The story of us

disclaimer: I don't own any of the character or any storyline that is based on the plot of final fantasy x or final fantasy x-2, normally seen there won't be much of the game woven into this story but you never know now, do you ^_^

Chapter one: The man I wanted you to be

It all began when I was twelve and you were sixteen. I was in love with a boy and you were in love with his sister. The boy I loved said he didn't love me back but yet when no one was around he gave me hope. Hope that one day he and I would be together. That never happened. And somehow I knew it never would.

Cause deep down I knew I only used my love for him as an excuse to why I should not be loving you. Deep down I had been fighting feelings. Feelings that everybody had seen before I ever got the chance to explore them myself.

The whole town was gossiping about how I would have a crush on you and how I shouldn't act on my feelings because you were not free. Yet you gave me hope. When you met me on the street, in the park or in the city you always stopped and asked me to run away with you. Sometimes I gave in, sometimes I didn't. You gave me hope in a way far worse than that other boy.

But somehow I knew this was different. I knew I would see you walking over to me one day. And you did. You cheated on her when you kissed me. You said it would be a one time thing but one turned into two and now this has been going on for six years now.

Those years didn't form a whole. I have lost sight of you for a while in between, seeing other men, but you always had a way of squeezing yourself back into my life. It was always weird cause every time that I got my heart broken, there you were. I once had a love of nine months and a week after we decided to separate from each other I met you in the street again.

Sometimes I liked the thought that you'd always be there, at other times.. I felt that you didn't want me to be happy. It was as if you knew when I met someone, you knew when I finally got the chance to start a life of my own with someone else. I guess it is my fault that things kept going for so long.

Now that I look back on it, I can say that I'm proud that I never cheated on anyone with you. You cheated two girls to be with me. I never had the heart to do such a thing. Every time I asked you why we couldn't be together you would just answer 'we just can't'. I always pretend I didn't know the real reason but I did…

We were too different, our families were too different and our friends were too different. Imagine me with you, what kind of trouble would that start? The town would be talking again, our friends would look at us from a distance. That really was the only reason why you stayed with all of your other girls. Cause by the way you spoke of them, I knew there was.. I wouldn't say nothing but neither would I say love.

It's kind of a typical Romeo and Julia story only you were never man enough to stand up to the rumours and you didn't even have to fear for your life. You only had to fear for your reputation and the love of your family. Don't get me wrong, I understand why you couldn't be the man I wanted… I just want you to know that because of you I've learned not to believe in fairytales that quickly anymore.

The last argument we had tore our friendship apart. I had asked you to look me in the eye and tell me straight to my face that you had only used me for your pleasure. To tell me that, throughout those six years, you never felt a thing for me. The only words you found were 'we just can't be together, we just can't.' I had always thought of you as a strong man but that image of you broke like a mirror smashed to the ground in an instant.

It was one thing to say we couldn't be together. I could have made peace with that. It's a totally different thing when you deny me closure. In my opinion a strong man should have told me how he felt, whether this would be good or bad. But now, six months later, you made my world tumble down.

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note: I will update, and I will update soon but only when I get some reviews telling me that you want to know more of this story. I don't mind putting work and hours into something, but first I want to know if it's worth while. So if you read this and you get frustrated cause there isn't any update.. you brought it onto yourself. :-) hehe. hope you enjoyed this first part of the story.. let me know if you want to know the rest of it. Byebye for now!