Noticing You Noticing Her
Emy starts to notice that Sara's feelings for Tegan aren't sisterly
Emy could remember the first time she realized that Sara didn't think of Tegan as just her sister.
They had just had dinner together; just the two of them, and Tegan had called with a question about a demo Sara had sent her. Emy ignored the side of the conversation she could hear. She went to the fridge and grabbed a beer before taking a seat on the couch and turning the TV on.
"Turn it down." Sara whispered after placing a hand over the receiver.
"Sorry." Emy mumbled and pressed the down button on the volume until Sara seemed pleased with the noise level.
Emy rolled her eyes and tried to watch TV as best as she could with the volume down. She flipped through the channels before settling on a hockey game. And that's when she heard it.
"I love you Tegan." It wasn't the words that tipped Emy off. It was the way they were spoken. The way Sara hung up the phone and grinned like an idiot. It was love. But not a family love. Sara was in love with Tegan.
It had been about a month since the phone call and Emy did everything she could to convince herself she was wrong about it. But she couldn't help but notice the little things. The way Sara's eyes lit up when Tegan's name showed up on her phone. The way she seemed to get lost in her sister's eyes. No matter how much she tried to pass it off as 'just sisterly' she couldn't anymore. Emy knew what she needed to do.
Sara was sitting quietly, curled up on the reclining chair, reading a book.
"Hey, Sar," Sara slowly looked up from her book, "Can I talk to you about something?"
Sara smiled sweetly, not knowing the topic of conversation, "Of course!"
"I, uh," Emy could feel her nerves tensing in preparation for backlash, "I've, um, noticed some things about you and Tegan." Sara's smile was now one of fake happiness as her eyes showed fear of the truth, "The way you interact isn't, uh, isn't sisterly." Sara tried to protest but Emy raised a finger to shush her, "I'm not judging you for it. I'm not mad at you for it. I just want to know if I'm only here as a cover." Emy was stern in an attempt to hold back the tears that were threatening.
"No Emy," Sara half smiled, "You aren't some sort of cover up. I really do love you. I just don't love only you."
"But you do love me? You really love me?" Relief washed over her emotions, replacing them with a slight feeling of happiness.
"Of course I love you Emy," Sara got up from her seat and hugged Emy, resting the side of her head on the taller woman's chest, "But I guess I should confess something."
"Oh?" Emy swallowed as she tensed up.
"Well," Sara still clung to her, which was rare for Sara. She usually only hugged for a few seconds at the most, "Tegan and I have never done anything, out of respect to our relationship, but she loves me too."
"You, you haven't done anything?" Emy was shocked, she was sure they would've gone at it on tour in the hotel room.
"Well, we made out once, and then realized what was happening. So we stopped at that." Sara pulled away to look into Emy's eyes, "I really do love you Emy."
"I have a confession of my own actually," Sara's eyebrows rose in a mix of shock and fear, "I would've been completely okay if you had, you know, done stuff together."
"What?" Sara was in complete shock now.
"I wasn't exactly upset at you over your feelings," Emy had her head down, bashfully looking at her own feet, "In the back of my mind somewhere, I kind of liked the idea. And I don't mean it as a, 'twins are hot together' but more of a, 'they'd be cute together'."
"Really?" Sara grinned at her, obviously happy that her girlfriend was okay with the idea of it.
"And I was wondering…" Emy looked up, her cheeks red from blushing, "I was wondering if maybe you could invite Tegan over for a movie night so I could tell her I'm okay with you having another girlfriend."
"Wait! What?" Sara's eyes were wide, "You want me to date my sister?"
"Well," Emy tilted her head and smiled, "Yeah. You want to, don't you?"
"Yeah, but…"
"No buts! If you want to you can. I'm okay with you dating her so long as you don't leave me for her."
"Okay." Sara smiled and rubbed Emy's arm reassuringly, "I would never leave you for her. But thank you for being understanding and supportive."
"You're welcome," Emy breathed a sigh of relief, "Just no making out in front of me. Please?"
"Cross my heart!" Sara crossed her chest as she spoke.
"Good. Now get back to your book. I'll call Tegan and have her come over. She should be spending the night here anyway, it's much better than staying by herself in a hotel." Emy walked out of the living room relieved and a bit happy, "That went better than expected." She spoke to herself before reaching for the phone.
"Hey." Tegan's voice came through the receiver.
"Hey, it's Emy."
"Hi Emy, how's it going?" Tegan had a natural cheeriness to her voice.
"It's going good. I was actually calling to ask if you want to come over tonight and watch a movie, have a few drinks, maybe even spend the night instead of being in a hotel." Emy bit her lip in anticipation; it felt like she was setting up two longtime friends on their first date.
"Sounds great Emy! What time?"
"Around eight."
"I'll see you at eight then! Later!"
"Later Tegan." Emy hung up the phone and smiled, excited for that evening.