It's my first time writing directly a story in English without using a French version that probably the reason it's short. No beta. Sorry for the mistakes.

Natsuki Kuga twenty-five year old sighted deeply. She was lying lazily in her bed, her emeralds stayed calm on the floor, next to her, a beautiful naked woman snore lightly in her embrace. No it was this woman who seeks some comfort and not the contrary. She hated demonstration of love. All she wanted was sex and nothing more. Fists clenched on her side, sadness was showing in Kuga face.

Again she made that mistake…

Again she was so weak…

Again she felt so hopeless…

And she did it again and again, not learning her lesson

And she will continue in that same path…

This is pointless to think about it, and she realized too late.

The mysterious woman rolled on the side toward Natsuki. Blue eyed watch her intensely, and a shy smile appeared. The blunette nibbled her lower lip and faked a nervous smile.

"Hey," came a sleepy voice.

"Hey…'' the emerald girl answered, guilt burning her stomach. She can't even think properly…she never had…her emeralds wavered away.

"That night…was awesome…"

"Yeah, I know…thanks."

''And you are so modest.'' The stranger laughed heartily burying her face in Natsuki's neck who stiffed. She wanted this person to leave immediately her home. She didn't want to talk, she didn't to kiss, she didn't want her in her side…

''Yeah I know…Perfection isn't easy.'' The brunette joke even it wasn't funny.

Kuga felt hands roaming sensually her body. She was horrible, all she wanted was freeing from her libido, and after that; forgotten all.

"Another round?" Kuga asked licking her lips in anticipation.

''I can't ask more. I'm so hungry of you.'' Lips and bodies crashed each other begging for more. They kissed soft moans escaped for battling dominance and explore more of their skin. She brushed her hand on her long and silky blond hair.

''Shizuru~'' Kuga moaned out loudly barely containing her aroused moment.

"What?" The blond asked in disbelief stopping all actions.

"I-said something wrong?" The bluette asked surprise trying to remember her forgotten words.

"How did you call me?''

''Errr…''

''You have some nerve to calling me Shizuru! Who is she? Your grilfriend? Secret lover?" Damn it Kuga cringed internally finally realizing her mistake.

''I can't believe it! What is my name?""

"Your name is…Shiori?"

"NO!"

''Sakura?"

"No! My name is Shizumi! Contrary to you, I remember yours Natsuki even if now I won't! " The blond roared storming in the bed, she took all her clothes.

''I'm sorry."

''I really don't fucking care about your apologies. You're like those despicable men! Only searching for sex! It was only an another quick fuck right?''

''Yes…no…I mean…well…we never said there will be more than that….''

''I can't believe this! Yesterday in the bar you said exactly the contrary! You wanted a serious relationship.''

''You kidding! That's not true. I remember saying I only want some fun and you agree with me, it just a one-night stand. I never force you. If you are unhappy, you can go.''

''You are a Bitch! Don't call me!''

''Oh don't be afraid, I have no intention to do it…'' Shizumi furious grabbed her purse and quickly left the apartment.

Natsuki cringed when she heard the doors slamming loudly. She sighted defeat, yes she already knew she was a bitch, a dick for over a month and she can't deny it. In fact, it didn't bother anymore…because she will stay one…

''See what you done to me Shizuru…I'm an horrible person because of you….because of my love for you…I'm always looking for someone who exactly look like you…even if it's not you, not even close. Having sex only thinking about you is disgusting...and if you know it…you will probably hate me…running away from me. I'm sick! I already hate myself for my weakness…I can't bear if you hate me Zuru…'' Natsuki's phone vibrating, she watched the message from her best friend…and sobs escaped rapidly.

Don't forget about tomorrow my Suki

Love you, your best friend :)

"Why I love you so much that I have the feeling I'm dying slowly?"