What Hurts the Most

by katiebeth004

Yes! This is a songfic! for some reason a lot of people don't like these. But it's just something I threw together. Ron/ Hermione there may be more to come I put in the time period of the 5th book OotP. I am expecting to write a lot of these chapters for different characters and different pairings I might try to find a song that brings the pairings together to combine them.

1. Hermiones Point of View

What hurts the most

Disclaimer: I'm not freaking British!

Chapter 1

Hermione's POV

It was storming really badly at Hogwarts but I didn't mind I like storms.

'I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house that don't bother me'

But today I'm in a bad mood and I'm crying.

'I can take a few tears now and then and just let em out'

I'm crying because my Ron is dating someone else well actually I can't exactly call him "my Ron" because he has actually never been mine at all but I want him to be.

'I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while even when going on with you gone still upsets me'

I knew that Ron dating someone else would bug me but I have put on the most convincing smile so Harry and Ron wouldn't see anything was wrong with me.

'There are days every now and again I pretend I'm ok but that's not what gets me'

Harry, Ron, and I have always been really close and I always would hint that I liked Ron but they never noticed.

'What hurts the most was being so close'

I have always wanted to tell Ron how I feel but I am too afraid he would disagree.

'And having so much to say'

And then when I finally got up the courage I found him snogging Lavender Brown.

'And watching you walk away'

Now we may never know how our relationship would have gone.

'And never knowing what could have been'

I'm so hurt I was beginning to think I loved Ron but wasn't completely sure if I wanted to admit it

'And not seeing that loving you is what I was trying to do'

Now every time I see him I hold back the tears.

'It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go but I'm doing it'

But I still try to smile when I see you.

'It's hard to force that smile when I see your old friends and I'm alone'

Some days I don't even want to get up knowing I will see you with her

'Still harder getting up getting dressed living with this regret'

I would change the past if I knew I would be with him in the future.

'But I know if I could do it over I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart that I left unspoken'

This is what hurts the most.

'what hurts the most was being so close and having so much to say and watching you walk away and never knowing what could have been and not seeing that loving you was what I was trying to do'

Most definitely what hurts the most.

'what hurts the most was being so close and having so much to say and watching you walk away and never knowing what could have been and not seeing that loving you what was I was trying to do'

3 I love you.