When you love someone, so much you want to give them everything, keep them safe from everything, and surrounded by so much love...but what if the person you love doesn't love you? What if that person was in fact the same person that made your life a living hell since kindergarten? Yet you can't seem to stay away from them...no matter what damage they have done to you..I guess that the down side of being in love with Paul Luke Wil...

(Leah's Point Of View)

Hi, I'm Leah Beth Clearwater, I'm seventeen years old, and have a secert that only my best friend Emily knows. I'm in love with someone I wasn't meant to love. In fact I was suppose to love another man by the name of Sam, but by the time he made any kind of impact in my life I was already in love with another for about eleven years. His name is Paul Luke Wil, even his last name says his the one. You must be thinking that we have had the huge love fest since kindergarten, but truth be told that this 'love fest' is only one sided. Paul is the hottest, smartest, most popular jock in the entire school of La Push. His that boy that mothers tell their daughters to stay away from and Fathers tell their sons to be like him someday.

Paul isn't a player or anything, just a lot of girls do throw themselves at him, but no matter how much they throw he doesn't date anyone of them. Rumor had it that the reason for that is because he has a girlfriend whose in college others say that he is gay. (those are from some Paul Haters)

But beside that fact, I knew him before he became any of that, I remember the very first day we met. It was August eleventh, kindergarten first day. Paul was short and bony. I was short but had baby fat still. I had seen him sitting by himself so I went to go sit with him. "Hi, my name ish Leah! Nice to meet you." I had said with a big smile. He looked up from his hands and I saw the most perfect eyes, green mixed with brown,

"Hi I'm Paul. Nice to meet you too." he said and gave me a smile that only showed his top teeth.

"Sho why are you here all by yourshelf? Why not go talk to Sham (its Sam) or Jared? They are guysh from my part of town. And they are okay." I had said and Paul looked nervous. "Don't worry they know my daddy! They won't hurt you caushe I'll tell my daddy and he'll tell their daddy." He had just nodded his cute head and I grabbed his hand. I had felt an electric shock had gone through my arm. I pulled my hand away and looked at my hand, it looked the same so I just grabbed his hand again introduced them. They all became best friend since then. Of course he talked to me, but then the guys made fun of him so he started making fun of me.

My heart broke the minute Paul told me we weren't friends anymore. It was a short friendship, but it made the biggest impact in my life. I had explained my feelings to my best friend Emily and she said it was what her mommy called love. So then I started thinking I was in love with Paul. I didn't tell him because he would bully me. Like in first grade he cute my hair, Second grade he ripped my new purple jacket, in Third grade he stuck my feet in mud when I was taking a nap, fourth he pulled my pants down while I was in the monkey bars. Fifth he and I got in my first fight, I kicked his ass. Sixth grade he tripped me while I walked by with my food tray. Seventh he would call me names, Eighth grade he got his first black eye for calling Seth a bad word. Ninth grade he got my white dress full of mud, tenth grade he had gotten my jacket and played football with it and it got torn and full of mud.

We are now in the eleventh grade he hasn't bullied me this year which is amazing. I'm still in love with him and Emily is now in my school. I walked down the hall with her right next to me.

"Hey Lee." Emily said.

"Yeah, Em?" I answered.

"Why aren't you going to the athletic party tonight? You have been varsity basketball player since sophomore year." Emily said and I looked at her with the 'are you fucking stupid' face.

"You know who is going to be there! I am so not in the mood to watch him make out with random girls." I whispered. Emily just rolled her eyes and crossed her arms.

"Maybe you'll be that random girl tonight." she said with a wink.

"EMILY!" I yelled and she started laughing.

"Dude, calm down you know I was just joking! But I really want to go to the party. Samie is going to be there and I wanna see his hot body!" Emily said with a blush,

"Aren't varsity cheerleaders athletes?"I asked, knowing the answer already,

"Yes, they are but I want to show up with someone cool. Everyone knows you! Your confident, beautiful, and not afraid to kick ass!" Emily said passionately.

"And you want someone to cover for you when you goes to Sam's house." I muttered.

"Yeeeeaaaaahhhh. That too." She muttered.

"Fine, but only cause if I go down I can take you with me." I muttered it was rare that Emily would get into trouble so I would get any chance to see it.

"You rock, and sometimes suck Leah." Emily said and I punched her arm. She said oww but then saw Sam and ran to him. He looked towards me but I kept walking, Sam had a thing for me and when he had asked me out I said no and it would seem like he isn't over it just yet.

I rolled my eyes and put on my headphones.

I tired to ignore everyone around me and walked to my black PT cruiser. It was the best thing in my life since my old bike. I started to feel like I was being watch, I turned around quickly to find the most perfect eyes staring at me. They were green and had a pinch of brown in them...

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