Still Just Way Too Much
Chapter 1: The Beginning
By: Can't Stand The Heat
There was a shadowed figure walking the halls of G-Major at 2:00 in the morning. There was a flash of lightning and it lit up the face of a young woman. Through the window she saw the rain falling hard. The thunder rumbled in the distance. There was another flash of lightning and it yet again lit up the face of a young woman with red hair falling in her face, green eyes that were red and irritated from the crying she had been doing, her pretty face was ruined with tear-tracks going down her cheeks. She had been crying for the man she loved, the man who broke her heart too many times to count, the man who said he loved her but never could. She walked into Recording Room B (A/N ?) and saw her guitar. She picked it up and began to play.
Looking out the window,
All I see is rain,
As each drop falls,
I feel my own pain.
The lightning strikes,
The thunder rumbles,
I sit alone,
As my heart crumbles.
The winds pick up,
The rain falls,
You're the one,
That broke my walls.
The rain falls harder,
As you start our sin,
The lightning CRACKS!
This storms gonna win.
Through the window I see,
Someone trying to be me,
You're standing there,
Just to stare.
Storm,
The rain falls,
Storm,
The thunder calls.
The thunder rumbles,
My heart is torn,
The lightning strikes,
My internal storm.
The darkness yearns,
For a soul to kill,
The lightning wishes,
For someone to grill.
Drip, Drop,
The rain drops,
Drip, Drop,
It just won't stop.
CRACK!
The lightning lights the sky,
CRACK!
In the blink of an eye.
The rain cleans,
The window pane,
The dirty filth,
Is washed away.
I look into the distance,
Thinking of what I could be,
But all I see,
Is you staring back at me.
I try to smile,
But I frown,
My love for you,
Keeps weighing me down.
I look to the future,
But it doesn't last,
I look back,
But all I see is an empty past.
I try to block the memories,
But they keep coming back,
They taint my soul,
Which is turning black.
So I sit alone,
And watch my past,
I realize now,
That we should be together at last.
Once again,
Back in reality,
This storm rages on,
Like my own personal tragedy,
The drip, drop of the rain,
Is like my pain.
The crashing thunder,
Is like my sightless blunder.
The bounding of a book,
That is now outworn,
The dawning of a storm,
Which should've never been born.
This storm reeks,
Of tragedy,
While I'm shocked,
Back into reality.
Cold as ice,
The hail falls,
The world slows,
The storm stalls,
You side-step each raindrop,
You bypass each thunder,
You race each lightning,
You're drowning under.
The final drop falls,
The final thunder stalls,
The final lightning's born,
This is the beginning of my heart-filled storm.
She comes out of the song, to hear clapping. She turns around to see him. He had been standing there through-out the whole song? Why didn't he say anything?
"Hey, Tommy. What are you doing here? It's like 2:00 in the morning."
"I should be asking you that, Jude. What are you doing here?"
"I'm just working on my new song."
"Why not wait until tomorrow? Why now?"
"There was an actual storm going on. It gave me a sudden burst of inspiration."
"Well, that's ok, but…" Tommy sighed. "So, are you ok? I mean, is everything ok between us?" Tommy asked thinking of three days ago.
!Flashback!
Tommy was in the studio, when Jude stormed in.
"Jude, what's wrong?"
"It's nothing Tommy. I mean, come on, in the past couple of days things have been really harsh. Shay was cheating on me, Shay broke up with me (on my birthday on national T.V.), you kissed me-"
"Shh… not so loud."
"Oh, yes. I remember now, you want me to forget about it. How can I forget a kiss from the man I love? Answer me that, Quincy." Jude said, her voice rising with each word she said.
"Jude, you don't love me. It's just some school-"
"Tommy, it's not a school-girl crush. If it was I could handle being around, but it's not, and I can't." Jude said and fled the studio.
!End Flashback!
This was the first time we had talked since then. And now he had to come and ruin my song…
"Jude, please listen to me…"
"Listen to what, Tommy? Listen to you break my heart again and again? Listen to you decide my life for me? Listen to you try to protect me, but you're really just afraid? Listen to you make my choices for me? Listen to you tell me that I could never love you but I do…"
"Jude if you would've told me this we could've been…"
"Told you what? That I loved you? Just to hear you say that I couldn't? If I would've told you that I loved you, chaos would have occurred. Never would the peace return, for if you left, it would break my heart, and the pieces would never come back. If I had told you how much I love you, it would be dangerous, for I wouldn't know what you would've done. Do know how hard it was to work with you everyday? How hard it was to be around you and knowing that nothing could ever happen? Do you know how hard it was to control myself when that love began to grow? Do you know Quincy? Do you really know?" I was breathing heavily by now, my emotions running haywire, as I finally told exactly how I felt about him. Then…
I was pulled forward and there were lips on mine… I opened my eyes to see Tommy's piercing blue one staring back at me… I pulled away from heaven straight into hell.
"Tommy! Why? Do you like hurting me? Like seeing me break to pieces? Like seeing me fall apart? Remember the last time you kissed? I'm still trying to pick up the pieces…" I was crying now…I had lost my angel, and received a demon…Why?...
I walked towards the door, but he grabbed me.
"Jude, listen this time. If you had told me just how much you loved me, then I could have told you how much I loved you. My heart aches for you, my soul burns for you, and now we can be together girl. Now we can be everything you and I want us to be." And then he let me go, thinking I would go back to him… But I couldn't… He's lying… I shook my head… And then I ran…
"Jude…" He could still feel her lips on his…
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When I got home, no one was there. No one ever was anymore. So I went upstairs and took a shower, and then crashed on my bed.
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The next morning, I woke to my cell phone ringing. I heard "Pick up the Pieces" playing so I knew it was Tommy. I grabbed it and picked up.
"Hello?"
"Jude? Hey, it's Tommy. I need you to get down to the studio, ASAP. We need to record that new song of yours."
"OK." I said, and then I hung up. I got up and grabbed some clothes off the floor. Then went and took a shower.
20 minutes later, I was ready to go with my long sleeved black shirt, a band t-shirt, and my ripped faded jeans, I was ready to hit the road.
So I grabbed my car keys off the kitchen table, and opened the front door to see a familiar blue viper in the driveway…
End Chapter 1:
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