A/N: Hey Guys,

This is my very first fanfiction. Just something I came up with from Finn's side of the Puck and Rachel relationship. Not original I know but there it is. Considering continuing on with Rachel and Puck's perspective. Authors love reviews! Tell me what you think please!

disclaimer: I don't own Glee or its characters... though if I could own Jesse.. I totally would lol ;)

Chapter 1:

I don't know when she fell asleep, don't remember when he moved, but there they are, asleep on the couch, in each other's arms. I watch as she wakes slightly, only to turn into him and snuggle closer before falling back asleep. His response is almost immediate, pulling her closer as he wraps his arm further around her, tucking her head into his neck, as he stirs; the touches of morning beginning to wake everyone in the room.

It's in this moment of quiet peace between the two that I realize, I've lost her, maybe I never really even had her. It makes sense and I have no idea how I couldn't have seen it, the obvious love they shared puzzling me as to why I never noticed it. All the times I hurt her or broke her heart, he was there. Every time Karofsky targeted her for a slushie facial, he was there to protect her. It was built, it seemed, on a need to protect her, a want to dry her tears, tears that he caused one too many times. His eyes, if anyone paid attention would light up when she walked in or stood up for herself. Her eyes would light up when he showed his Noah side and he never corrected her like so many others when she used that as his name.

She sighs contently in her sleep and my heart tightens. I loved her, I really did. Maybe I still do love her but she isn't mine to love. There he is, having woken from her moving, slightly rubbing her back and humming their song in her ear, eyes closed as if he wished he could stay that way forever. He's hers and she's his and those two were the ones meant to love. It isn't my right or my privilege. I had my chance, I let her go and he saw what I never could. He saw Rachel Barbra Berry as the beauty and the star she deserved to be seen as. Something I couldn't give her and something I never will.

I've lost a lot in my life. A child that was never mine, a father I barely knew, who I thought was the love of my life and a best friend. I'm not the smartest crayon I know this but I know that love and the things I've lost are not easy to go through. I made it, in large part to the small brunette currently tucked under said best friend, and I've strived to become the big, tall, slightly less stupid, almost man I am today. Yes I've lost a lot in my short time in my life. Perhaps the biggest loss I just realized I actually have lost, was losing the one true love of my life in the brunette that's still asleep but sadly not in my arms. But you know. Sometimes losing. It isn't all that bad.

Would absolutely LOVE some reviews! please and thank you!