My name is Rose. My story is complicated and long. I finally feel able to tell the whole truth of what really happened. I know your wondering if I got my happy ending and yes in many ways I did but the journey of how I got there is the important part. I can't tell you yet where I ended up it wont be nearly as special with out the whole story. The biggest thing is that I have found peace. I am at peace with how things turned out and I hope you will be too.
I woke up groaning. My body still ached from the rescue mission. I guess you could call it a success. We saved most of the prisoners and lost only a few guardians and only one was turned. To me it was a success simply because I managed to save Dimitri. I couldn't help the shudder that ran through my body as I remembered watching him fall and seeing that filthy monster sink his teeth into Dimitri. I don't really remember much after that. I know I was fighting hands that seemed to be all over me trying to restrain me. I do remember running back into the cave after him but I was on auto pilot.
We had both been taken to the clinic. I was released yesterday. Dimitri I was told was planned to be released today. I decided I had time to take a shower before heading over to the clinic to see if he needed any help after being released. I flung off my covers and started to walk towards my bathroom when I noticed there was an envelope on my floor near the door. It appeared as if someone didn't want to disturb me and pushed it under the door. I picked it up off the floor and turned it over. There was nothing written on the outside. Hmmm. Sliding my finger under the edge of the flap I ripped it open. The smell hit me first. After shave. Dimitri. Hesitantly I pulled the folded piece of paper out of the envelope and opened it. As soon as I saw the first word I was shaking. Roza! Why was he writing me a letter? I thought he was still in the clinic. I took a deep breath and continued reading.
Roza my love.
I owe you an apology for writing this letter. I am too afraid to come to you in person. I have killed strigoi and survived the loss of a best friend but I would rather face all of that a dozen times over than have to see your face when I tell you my decision. First you need to know that I love you more than life itself. I would give my life for yours in a heart beat. That might not mean much coming from a guardian who risks their life all the time anyway so know that I would give myself up to being turned for you. There is no living soul on earth that I would put above you. You are the single most important thing in my life and no matter what happens to us in the future you always will be. Please know that I will be eternally be grateful for what you have done for me. You forced me to let someone else into my heart. You healed me when I thought life was meaningless. You gave yourself to me without reservation, body mind and soul. Please know that I gave all of me to you as well. No one has ever touched my heart and soul like you have. No one ever will again. The other night with you was amazing. The love we shared was beyond the words I have to describe. I will carry this memory with me everywhere. You are the most beautiful amazing women I have ever known. But Roza I realized something yesterday. What you and I share is putting you at risk. You came back into that cave for me. You put yourself into great danger in a fools attempt to rescue me. Now I know your temper is going to be starting to rise but please know I am grateful you did come back. I would be dead or worse turned if you had not come back, however I can't allow you to die because of me. I don't know if I could go on knowing that you had sacrificed yourself for me. So where does that leave us? I know you are so certain that I am strong enough for anything but I am not. I am not strong enough to be around you and to keep you safe so I am removing myself from the picture. I have been granted a transfer to a new guardian position. I have asked that this information be kept private because I do not want you coming after me. You are to focus on keeping yourself safe and then the princess. I pray that someday you can forgive me and realize that I did this all for you. It is what's best. Please live your life and be happy. Most of all please be safe!
All my love. It will always be yours
Dimitri.
I realized I was shaking violently. There were splotches that had appeared on the paper. I reached up and touched my cheeks and realized I was crying. That was when the room started to spin. Then everything started going white.
I heard voices and knocking on my door but I was unable to answer. I heard the voices get louder and a key turned in my lock. My throat had closed up I could form no reply. The white was starting to go gray. I was vague aware that a set of warm arms had picked me up and was carrying me out of my room. I was to numb to care who it was or where I was being taken. The sounds started to fade into the distance and I waited hoping the blackness would engulf me and I would be granted the oblivion of unconsciousness .
I felt my body being lowered onto some piece of furniture and I let out a sigh giving into the dark. The last thing I saw was a worried pair or bright green eyes.