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Changed: Ch. 1 - She's Gone
'I couldn't get myself to leave him. No matter how much I hated him, I just loved him too much. Contradicting I know but I just can't help loving him and hating at the same time.
'I know he is sleeping around, I can see the signs. It's gotten worse, I can't deny it anymore. I just wish things could go back to the way they were'
She couldn't stop the hard wrenching sob that was threatening to come out for some time. Kagome lay on the middle of their bed, curled up sobbing, letting it all come crashing down, letting all of her troubles just flow out shamelessly.
'How could he forget again?'
With her sobs lulling her slowly to sleep she finally allowed sleep to take over with her decision already made.
XxX Lime-ish XxX
As he pumped into her, she couldn't help but moan out her pleas.
"Harder…please go…faster" she managed between moans. "Fuck me harder and faster"
As he sped up the bed frame began bumping against the wall cracking it. All she could do was hold on to dear life as her lover pumped into her with demon speed. She could feel his deadly claws dig into her hips and that only caused her to get hotter and wetter for him.
He never spoke during their rutting but she didn't care, as long as she got to have him.
He always took her from behind and handled her roughly and she loved it. It turned her on to no ends. She fell forward, resting her head on her folded arms and sticking her ass higher in the air.
He reached for her breasts and roughly kneaded them drawing blood from the pricks his claws created. The scent of blood threw him in a frenzy and he pumped harder into her.
"I-I'm cum-CUUUMMIIIING" she yelled out as her walls clamped down on his engorged member causing him to climax as well.
Coming down from their high he slumped forward and fell next to her, too tired to do anything else, they both fell asleep as they were.
XxX Next Day XxX
'Damn, it's already noon…'
Getting out of the female's tight hold on him, Sesshoumaru looked around for his clothes. Finding only his pants and shirt he sighed as he smelled the perfume and natural smell of his secretary all over his clothes. It overpowered his own scent and he even found some lipstick under the collar of his shirt.
'Damn bitch I warned her about coming near me while wearing that' he was brought back from his thoughts at the feeling of arms wrapping themselves around his waist.
"What's wrong Sesshoumaru? Come back to bed, we have the day off remember? Plus we have to celebrate our one year anniversary." She said as she walked around him and was leaning in for a kiss.
Abruptly pulling her away from him, he growled low.
"What did you say?"
"It's our one year anniversary?"
"This Sesshoumaru has nothing with you, you are simply my stress toy. All you are good for is a good rut, this Sesshoumaru does not need to repeat this to you"
"Aww come on Sesshy let me dream. I mean I AM the best you've ever had. That's the only reason you continuously keep coming back to me, well that and…your little wife can't satisfy you like I do" she said with an evil glint in her eye and an evil smirk.
Growling louder his grip on her shoulders tightened and he roughly crushed his lips to hers. After a long moment he finally ended the searing kiss.
"You're right, only you can tame this Sesshoumaru's beast, and sate this Sesshoumaru's desires Kikyo."
"BUT DON'T YOU EVER TALK ABOUT THIS SESSHOUMARU'S MATE AND DON'T EVER CALL THIS SESSHOUMARU SUCH A DEGRADING NAME" his beast growled at her and pushed her away. Getting ready to leave he was stopped by her arm snaking around holding his chest.
"Oh come on Sesshoumaru, you don't scare me, you are just one big puppy, and you know it. Plus if I remember correctly, yesterday was your mate's birthday and your wedding anniversary."
'What a nuisance.' was his last thought as he got out of her hold and her apartment.
"Hello?"
"Souta?" she choked out.
"Kagome what's –"
"Can you just…can you come for me please?"
"Sure no problem, but –"
"please" she said in a choked out whisper then hung up.
Kagome sat in the living room with all her belongings by the door. She was ready to leave, she had given herself a small hint of hope by awaiting his call in the morning, or having him come in with flowers, or simply arrive, but none happened. That's when she followed through with her decision. She packed all of her things and left their – no, his home empty of her presence, as if she never existed.
Hugging and burying her face on her knees she stayed like that until she heard the door open.
"Sorry for bothering you with this Souta. Can you please help me load my things onto the truck?" she said as she turned around.
Meeting deep amber eyes, she froze.
"You are not permitted to leave this Sesshoumaru" he stated impassively.
"Don't…just…don't" she hung her head, hiding her eyes with her bangs.
"I denied it for a while, thinking it was just a phase. Thinking to myself that it will pass if I let you keep doing it. I kept telling myself that it didn't hurt because I am the one who gets to keep you at the end, I am the one who is married to you….I am the one you chose as your mate" she whispered the last part.
"What is it you are trying to say miko, you are accusing this Sesshoumaru of rutting with other women."
She gasped and dared to look at him. Hearing him call her miko brought back so many memories and made her realize that she had lost her mate, her Sesshoumaru. She knew she was losing him from the moment he began referring to himself in the third-person.
She broke down crying again, she didn't care what he thought, he had just broken her and he didn't even care.
"You bastard, at least have the guts to admit it!" she yelled.
Sesshoumaru's eyes flashed red then back to his amber hue.
'HOW DARE SHE DISRESPECT US!'
'She is simply angry, it will pass'
Kagome ran to the door and tried to get past him when he grabbed her upper arm before she did so and crushed her to him. She struggled to get out of his grip, then suddenly stopped. Sesshoumaru was calming her with the slow soothing rumble that he emitted from his body, almost as if he was purring and the same time was trying to calm down his beast.
Kagome mumbled something in his chest, he relaxed his hold and ceased his slow rumble to understand.
"Why?" she whispered.
"This Sesshoumaru does not need to explain…but I will…it just happened, a few nights after father had given me complete control of the company, I was stressed and she offered her services and I accepted."
'Not even a hint of compassion in his voice'
"With who?"
"Kikyo"
'His secretary? I should've known, she never liked me, gave me dirty looks when I visited him'
Sesshoumaru looked at the top of mate's head as she stood there thinking, wishing he could see her angelic face.
"What else do you wish to know?" he asked sounding bored.
'Do I even want the answer to my next question?...Yes I need to know'
"H-How long?" she hesitated.
Silence. She finally looked up at him with tears brimming her eyes.
"How long?" she asked again.
"A year." He saw her tears begin to fall and her eyes wide with shock.
Kagome finally looked away. It hurt her, it hurt her so much she couldn't help but cry. She never felt so weak, so unimportant, so ugly. That's when she finally allowed the darkness in the recess of her mind to take over. The pain in her heart was killing her she just wanted to die.
Still crying Kagome didn't look at Sesshoumaru, she simply asked. "Was I really such a boring and ugly mate?"
'NO YOU ARE THE MOST PERFECT MATE'
'was she?'
'YES!! SHE STILL IS! SHE WAS THE ONLY ONE TO ACCEPT US FULLY!'
'she is mine'
'OURS!'
He wasn't able to quickly process her question, he was so shocked by it that he was having an inner battle with his demon and was not able to reply in time.
"I'm sorry" was all he heard before he finally came to finding that he was alone in the house. He ran to the door only to see her brother's retreating vehicle
"She's gone"
'MATE!'
A/N: Well I hope you guys like it so far!