And here we are, Letters To The Doctor! This is the sequel to Letters To Rose, so if you haven't read those I strongly suggest you read them first. These were a bit of a challenge to me, because I had to redo my writing style to fit Rose's voice. It was worth the effort though, and so... Enjoy!
Doctor,
You left me! I told you I loved you, I gave you everything and you just... left.
What were you going to say, Doctor? I'm going mad here, with Mum and Dad and Mickey trying to soothe me but THEY DON'T UNDERSTAND. He loves you, Rose, they say, but they don't know. Not for sure. THEY'LL NEVER KNOW FOR SURE. And I'm never gonna know either.
God, do you know how frustrating it is? I may be stuck in a parallel universe, but you got the better deal. You know what I said as well as what you were going to say. I DON'T.
Doctor, please, wherever you are just do something to let me know what you were going to say. I don't care even if you were going to say that you hate me, at least I'd have closure.
But I know you don't hate me, Doctor. And I don't know if you love me. Maybe that's what makes it so frustrating, it's that now we're stuck in this status quo forever. I was too afraid to just DO SOMETHING and try to change what we had back when I could, and now I'll never get the chance. If I had been able to touch you on Bad Wolf Bay, I would've just kissed you. Could've avoided all the tricky words and hurt if just for one second I could've kissed you.
Sometimes I dream that we're on Bad Wolf Bay again, and that each time you get just a bit closer to saying what you were gonna say, but there's never quite enough time. And each time I wake up screaming your name.
God, Doctor, WHAT WERE YOU GOING TO SAY?