My first fanfiction, kind of fails, but oh well. I don't own Kuroshitsuji, if I did, why would I be writing a fanfiction? o__o
Summary: Sebastian and Ciel have grown to love one another, but confusion begins to split them apart. Ciel thinks Sebastian loves someone else and Sebastian thinks Ciel hates him because of his feelings, though he has yet to confess them. What kind of thrilling mind games will they play to make the other take notice of their feelings?
Ciel/Lots of people. Sebastian/Ash.
The air was thin, but slightly tainted with cold. But that barely bothered Ciel, he had too many other things to worry about tonight, like for example why the Queen had refused to give him information. But even that, the most important part of his "job" wasn't enough to keep his mind from wandering to worry all about Sebastian, that stupid demon. Lately, he had noticed Sebastian seemed distant, he seemed to be afraid to undress him, speak to him, even look at him!
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This morning he woke up to no Sebastian at all, he wandered around looking for him, then finally went to check in the last place he'd think Sebastian would be in the middle of the day, his own room. But Sebastian was there, he could hear him loud and clear. He was speaking to someone, Ciel could hear the nervousness twist it's way from inside him into every word that was spat out of his mouth. Ciel listened closely, "I've been wanting to tell you this..", Ciel gasped and looked around then continued, "-ster, but haven't been able to get to it. See, a demon with a contract isn't supposed to be in love with a human. Even so, a demon isn't supposed to feel love at all." What? What's he talking about? Ciel stared at the door, backing away. If he opened it and there was some girl in there, Ciel would be beyond ticked. But he didn't expect it, or rather he tried to deny he heard that and the thought of his butler liking or coming to even love anyone besides him. Besides that, I mean, no where in the contract he got himself into did it mention the "Your demonic butler may at times act like a 12 year old love struck girl" warning. Lost in thoughts, Ciel hadn't noticed that a few minutes had passed and he was still standing stiff outside Sebastian's door. But his thoughts were soon pushed to the back off his mind, as his demonic butler casually opened the door, not even showing a hint of astonishment as he found the cute, surprised, small boy outside his door.
"U-Uhm.." Ciel stuttered innocently glaring at Sebastian, but then shifting his eyes to look at something he found to be less interesting, perhaps the floor.
"Young Master?" Sebastian voice came out soothingly, leaking confusion in his tone. To say Sebastian was confused would be an understatement, he had sensed someone outside his door, but didn't expect it to be his master. Sebastian couldn't fight back and mask his confusion, he had done enough of masking his emotions by hiding the shock and pain he felt when he saw how hurt his Young Master looked as he shifted his eyes from his own, to the floor. 'Had he heard?' Sebastian worried.
"I-I have to go." Ciel spat out quickly and was gone in a flash. Sebastian stared blankly at the young boy, already rushing into his own room. 'He heard..'
Ciel's POV.
What am I supposed to do? Am I supposed to just act like nothing had happened? I'm sure he knows I had heard, especially with the foolish weak way I had acted in his presence. But what if acting as if nothing had happened would only lead Sebastian to actually say something to this girl? I had noticed that there was nobody else in Sebastian's room when he opened the door. So I suppose the one person I thought wasn't shy, but was, had been rehearsing. Rehearsing? Hah! How stupid, I'd expect more from a demon, especially that certain demon. But I must get back to finding a way to make Sebastian forget about it all. Who do I have to ask for advice? I mean, really? Did any of you think I'd just be able to play it off as if it was some mad skill I was born with? No, even if it was a blessing from 'God' I had received when born, I wouldn't know. I've never been interested in anyone, I've never been put in such a bad situation. But why am I even thinking of this any way? I don't love Sebastian.
"I don't love Sebastian", I said quietly, while sitting on my bed as my heart raced silently. But what if I do? I wouldn't know what love felt like, would I? I've forgotten such things ever since I made a contract with Sebastian. I couldn't handle it anymore, I believed it was best if I had forgotten the emotions I had before. Then I wouldn't be fighting them back, they just wouldn't exist. I know I can't strand myself on an island surrounded by denial, separating Sebastian and me, I find denial annoying. Along with lies, if I loved Sebastian but wasn't aware of it and told him I didn't, it wouldn't be a lie, I know that. But I know that I have feelings for him. But whether or not these feelings are enough to be labeled as love is what I'm unsure about. Who could I ask that would know? Certainly not a girl.. nor Grell, nor Bard, Finny, or any of those nutcases. Perhaps Undertaker, he's the only one that comes to mind. Though he's overly whacked, he's been around for quite some time and can be serious if you bring it off as a serious subject and are offering something in return. I have to arrange a meeting with him, time to ask one of my catastrophe-causing servants to help me. But for now, I'll keep my distance from Sebastian at any cost, at all times. Unless I'm about to be torn to shreds by Pluto, then I'll wave my invisible white flag over my head. But until then, no speaking to him unless I need to.. if I need to, I'll act as if he's a stranger.
My thoughts kept going on and on as I laid myself down on my soft bed. This meant changing myself, I sighed inwardly. It's barely 5, but I'm exhausted. So, I slip my shoes off, struggling just a tad. But no worries cross my mind being that nobody was here to see me fail, if it comes to that. I don't feel like taking a bath, so I shuffle my bare feet, trying to distract myself from thinking about how cold the air was brushing against my pale skin. But I stop suddenly when I hear a knock on my door.
"Yes?" I said harshly.
"Young Master?" Sebastian's voice is always inaudible, being that there's a door between us.
"What is it?" I played off my plan.
"I am greatly sorry for earlier, I had neglected to attend to my duties, but I have come to tell you we must go to a meeting this evening in 2 hours." He seems normal..
"A meeting? With whom?" I shivered, the cold was getting thicker.
"Undertaker. You recall we are going through an investigation concerning the missing children, correct?" Undertaker? I smirked, I may not have to go through many problems working this out.
"All right, I'll prepare." I say, hiding the spice off joy in my voice.
"Do you wish for my assistance, young master?"
"No." I rose my voice a bit. "I will no longer need your assistance for such things, understand? I had expected to inform you earlier, but since you neglected to show up throughout the entire day, I missed my chance. You will do simple tasks from now on, leave Meilin to do the rest." I really, REALLY, regret saying that. Meilin? Seriously? What am I thinking? He stayed silent for a while.
"Yes, my Lord." He replies coldly. He almost sounds hurt.
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Yeah, so I decided to combine Pandora Hearts with Kuroshitsuji, but only Break and Gilbert.
Beisdes that, this is a fail. __
RandR?