PREFACE

It was like one of those decisions in which you had no choice. Any decision would have still have left me heartbroken. I just sat there and I couldn't do anything when that unchangeable situation happened. I was just powerless. It was like everything that we had come through was worth nothing. Everything was all broken into pieces. I couldn't change anything anymore. I was too slow to stop anything.

I just stared out at nothing. Even my huge, playful brother looked so disfranchised. I wished someone had the power to go to the past. I just wished I could change the past. But this was real. Nothing could be done at this very terrifying moment. I just wished I could get out of this nightmare.

I wanted to scream but I couldn't. My voice was gone. I twisted in pain. I just wanted to see him at this very moment. Finally I screamed out painfully.

"No!"