A/N: Hey guys! It's been a long time since I wrote a story and saying that, I haven't updated any of my multi-chap fanfics [Ichiruki ones] either but still, I wanted to share this short one-shot or drabble or whatever it is.

I am somewhat in this quite creative mood now but I am still feeling so lazy so forgive me for errors. Also, this might bore you out but whatever. I want to write it and I want to share it. ;P

So, please read this one. And give me a feedback ~ I would really appreciate it.

How long has it been?

Thinking about the things from way back sometimes makes me regret the idea of being out here in the real world. I am unsure of tomorrow. But then again, what would happen if I was still living there? What could I have been if I was still in that ideal city? Seeing things from a different point of view have somewhat opened my eyes.

I feel like I am seeing a whole new level of truth. The hideous truth behind that city.

Still, I wonder about things... There are times when I would just stare into empty space, slowly losing my mind in a pool of "what-ifs".

And then, there you were.

In an instant, my fate was changed. You saved me. Again, you entered my life in a way that completely surprised me. It's unbelievable how your reckless ways would always get me out of trouble.

In the first place, it was me who saved you, right? It was me who was troubled back then. But I certainly did not regret that. That one night we spent was a memory engraved within me and you leaving me without a trace, to some extent bothered me. I was curious about the things you believed in. I was always looking forward to the day when we will meet again.

I was and still oblivious, yes I know that. But now that I'm with you, I start to see the world in a new scale. It was incredible, the way you instill such facts into my mind.

You have changed me, changed my way of thinking, changed my whole being. I could almost say that you flipped my world upside down. And yet, I can never voice out any discontent, for there wasn't any to begin with.

Do you remember when I asked you to just end my life? I was pleading for you to instantly kill me. And yet you stubbornly shouted at me telling me that I could get through with it. I endured the pain that whole time. I was terrified when I woke up and found a different appearance of a person in front of the mirror. I was afraid and I thought I could never go on. Yet, you who were holding a pack of food told me that everything's alright. This line on my body and my white hair, you accepted them. You calmly acknowledged what had become of me.

I thank you for everything that you've done.

I know that there are times when I become a huge burden for you and I swear I never want to be one. It's just... I'm just helplessly like this. Still, I want to change. And don't doubt me, because I will. I will be a better person.

Right now, I am trying my best to fit in the real world you have shown me.

I am trying to learn lots of things, like how to defend myself and such.

Wouldn't it be good if someday, I will be as strong as you are? I would be your equal.. But there's still a long way to go.

As for now, you will be someone I admire. Someone who I am attached to, even though you tell me that we should just retain our relationship as strangers. It sublimely aggrieved me when you coldly told me that. But what can I do? I have always treated you as more than that. Aren't we.. friends?

Yes, that's right. Friends...

But then again, I hope you don't forget that time when... When I told you that I wanted to go back to that city. I want to see my mother. And still, I continued staying by your side.. Clearly because... I find myself attracted to you.