This story is based on something that happened to me last night. And to try and get my feelings out I wrote this story. Hope you like it.

"I never knew until that moment how bad it could hurt to lose something you never really had." ~From the television show The Wonder Years

"...unrequited love does not die; it's only beaten down to a secret place where it hides, curled and wounded. For some unfortunates, it turns bitter and mean, and those who come after pay the price for the hurt done by the one who came before." — Elle Newmark (The Book of Unholy Mischief)

Walking out of yet another random guys house, I couldn't help but think about what brought me to this point.

Her stupid comment on his stupid page. I thought bitterly to myself. The only reason that I'm acting out is because of him. Tears slowly crept down my face and I angrily brushed them away. I was done crying over him. Keep telling yourself that.

"Go away." I mumbled in the air to myself. I reached my car parked a couple blocks away and slipped in. The drive to my house was filled with silence.

When I got home, I saw that both Rosalie and Alice's cars were there and sighed. I was hoping they'd be with Emmett and Jasper and that I could avoid the lecture that was bound to happen when I got inside.

I got out of my car slowly and made my way to the door just as slowly. I stuck my key in the door and unlocked it. Before opening it, I took a breathe and slowly released it. I was preparing myself for Rose and Alice.

Slowly opening the door, I looked around the living room and saw no one. I knew it wasn't safe though and as I made my way to my bedroom, my thoughts were confirmed. Alice and Rose were sitting outside my door. I stopped where I stood in the hallway.

"Hey." I said lamely. It was pointless to try and make small talk. I knew what was coming and I couldn't avoid it.

"Don't hey us." Rose glared at me. If looks could kill, I'd be dead where I stood.

"Where were you last night?" Alice questioned. She didn't look as deadly as Rose, but I knew if I made the wrong move, she would be.

Knowing I couldn't avoid the lecture, I answered honestly. "I was with some dude I meet at the party." Rose's glare just got worse, while Alice sighed.

"You can't keep doing this Bella." Alice said.

"And why in the hell not?" I questioned.

I could see that Alice was going to speak, but Rose beat her to the punch. "Because what you're doing makes you a whore." The last word held so much venom, I was actually taken aback. Rose was blunt, and I knew this, but she had never been this vicious towards me. Not matter how true her statement was.

"Rose." Alice glared at our friend. "That's not what Bella needs right now."

"Don't try and sugarcoat this Alice. That's exactly what she needs right now." Rose glared right back.

"Actually, what I need right now is to shower, so if you'll excuse me." I said and attempted to get by them. But of course they didn't let me pass. They both jumped up to block my path.

"No. You stop right now and listen to me." Now it was Alice's turn to glare at me. "You need to cut this shit out. It's not healthy."

Now it was my turn to glare at her. "I think it's perfectly healthy."

"Whoring yourself out to guys doesn't help you get over him Bella. He doesn't even live this same state as you and you're letting him get to you." Rose hissed.

"Who says I'm trying to get over him? Can't I just be having fun?" I questioned her. And blatantly ignoring the "out of state" comment.

Rose glared at me for a moment longer before turning towards Alice. "Fuck this Alice. She doesn't want our help. I'm out of here." And with that Rose walked away.

Alice just looked at me. "What happened to you Bella?"

I couldn't help the laugh that left me lips. "He" I hissed his name"happened Alice. It's all his fucking fault. Now if you'll excuse me."

Surprisingly Alice stepped out of my way. I made my way past her and was about to close my door when she spoke.

"We're just trying to help Bella." She said with a deflated tone.

"I appreciate it, but I'm fine." And with that I closed the door and then threw myself on my bed. In all honesty, I knew they were right. Deciding to ignore what they said before, I went to the bathroom to take a shower.

I stripped out of my clothes and got into the already waiting hot shower. I spent the whole shower just relaxing and not thinking. By the time I step out and wrap myself in a towel, my mind starts to wonder. Before I get dressed I turn on my laptop.

After dressing I sat on my bed and pulled up Facebook. I knew what I was about to do would kill me a little more inside, but I still did it away. I logged in and then went to my friends list. I quickly typed in his name and then clicked on his page. Scrolling down, I didn't stop until I found the comment that broke my heart.

************************Flashback 6 weeks before***************************

"Alice, he hasn't texted me back." I complained to one of my best friends.

We were currently sitting on the couch, watching cheesy 80's movies and have a girls night.

"Maybe's he just busy." She tried to reason but I wasn't buying it.

"There has to be something else. I've texted him before when he was busy, and he got back to me. Granted to took a few hours, but he replied. He's just outright ignoring me now."

At that moment, my other best friend Rose walked into the living with the Vodka.

"Ok, Bella, listen up. You need to chill out and relax. It's been what, like a day, and you're acting crazy. Now, let's forget about him for the next few hours." And with that Rose handed me the bottle of alcohol and I took a big drink. It burned my throat going down, but I didn't care.

"Alright. The party can start now." Rose smiled after her comment. Alice just giggled and started the movie.

The next few hours, we ate, drank, and watched movies. It was a great time, but when Alice and Rose decided to call it quits, I knew that my thoughts about Edward weren't going to stay away.

I went back to my room and got on Facebook. After checking on games I was playing and looking at other friends posts, I finally went to Edward's page determined to figure out why he was ignoring me.

I scrolled his page looking at his posts and posts by his other friends until one caught my attention. My gut was telling me to ignore it, but I just couldn't.

Tanya Denali

Hey babe, I haven't seen you, since you've been busy and what not. Just call me when you get the chance. I've missed seeing your face 3 August 30 at 6:07 pm

My mind was racing. Did he get a girlfriend and not tell me? Now I was really determined to figure out what happened. The date matched up to when the first ignored text was sent.

I clicked on Tanya's name and was taken to her page. Her profile picture was just a head shot, but I could see that she was a strawberry blonde with blue eyes. I studied the picture for a moment before looking to see if her wall was blocked. Luckily for me it wasn't and I clicked on it. I scrolled down to see if I saw anything unusual. At first I didn't, but when I was making my back up, I saw a post. It was from a member of his band.

Demetri Volturi

So, Edward's here with me, and he won't shut up about you! September 2 at 8:35 pm

Tanya Denali

You and Edward should come pick me up. I want to see him! September 2 at 8:37 pm

Demetri Volturi

Haha, I'll let him know you miss his face. September 2 at 8:40 pm

Tanya Denali

Thank you! Oh, and what has he been telling you? Are they all good things? I promise I won't tell him :P September 2 at 8:41 pm

I reread that post, at least 10 times, and each time my hear broke a little more. I decided to check to see if either one of them had "in a relationship". Neither one did, but the way Tanya talked to Edward proved there was something there.

So that's why he's been ignoring me. I thought to myself. He got a girlfriend and instead of telling me he just ignored me.

That night, I cried myself to sleep. It hurt that he didn't even try to be my friend now that he had a girl.

******************************End flashback******************************

The next morning after the whole Facebook ordeal, I woke up miserable and with no self-confidence.

As I sat here on the bed, still wrapped in my towel, and I couldn't help the tears that started to fall from the memories of six weeks ago.

Before I knew it, I was full on sobbing. My heart belonged to Edward but he didn't belong to me. I had lost something that wasn't even mine to being with and that's what made everything hurt that much more.

Man, that was actually kinda hard to write, but I managed to do it. I feel like there could be a couple more chapters just to help clarify some things. Review and let me know if I should do that.