How Could I?

How could I go back to the way it was
when life with you was unheard of?

How could I go back to being who I once was
when who I was only existed far away from here?

How could I erase the memories
when the memories shaped my life?

How could I forget you
when you're still here
whispering every word in my mind?

How could I stay above
when all I want to do
is fall below?

How could I not love you
when loving you
made me whole?

How could I?
I can't.