I placed my hand in Selena's, and she turned to me and gave me that cute little grin that she always does, and then planted a kiss on my cheek with her bright red lips before turning away and reaching for her BlackBerry.
Our black limousine was speeding along the LA freeway, towards Toluca Lake, where my best friend, Demi Lovato, was finally marrying the love of her life, my brother, Joe Jonas. I was genuinely happy for them. They were and had been in love for 6 years now. It was 2016 and they were 23 and 26, ready to start a family and be with each other for the rest of their lives.
Selena and I had been together for 6 years now also. She is the love of my life, my feelings for her never swayed and our relationship is a new adventure everyday. You could call our relationship perfect, after we ended our Disney career, we've both been successful. My band, Nick Jonas and the Administration, had won 5 Grammy's, while Selena's been acting in hit movies. We're the new Brangelina apparently, both of us being A List celebrities in Hollywood. We've lived together since 2011, after we left Disney in 2010. Once Selena and I were 18, we moved in together.
We fell in love, young and moody, but we learned to love together once more. Demi and Joe moved to upstate New York, and Kevin stayed in his house in Texas with Danielle and had their daughter, Emily. I'd broken off Disney after JONAS got canceled and they reeled in their new set of teenage heart throbs and pop stars. Their top four shows in 2010 ended with a year of each other. JONAS ended at the end of 2010 as I focused on my music, Joe focused on Broadway, and Kevin focused on family. Wizards of Waverly Place was canceled after 3 seasons, and Selena turned to acting for other channels, and has been moderately successful. Sonny With A Chance ended at the beginning of 2011 and Demi started doing what she loved. After that, all of us were off.
Even Hannah Montana, the biggest of all of us, ended with the 4th season in mid-June 2010. Miley moved to Australia with Liam, and has been apparently been happy there for 6 years. I haven't talked to her, nor seen her since 2010. 2010....A long time for two people that used to be best friends....
But we'd both moved on, those feelings we thought were so strong had faded, and though I thought of her every once in a while, I didn't let my mind go too far. I made sure Selena was my priority, and I loved her, with everything in me.
I'm not one to rule things out, but I was fairly certain that I would be with Selena the rest of my life. We were perfect, her and I.
It's been 6 years, 6 years of love.
And we haven't married yet, but I think I'm going to do it within the next few months. Selena's been apart of my life since 2007 though. Its been the most amazing 9 years of my life.
But then again, love has always been there for me.
I met Miley in 2006 and I couldn't help but fall in love with her. We were young and stupid, after a year and a half together we ended it at the end of 2007, and in 2008 I began to date Selena for a couple of months. It was immature and too cliche. I ended it after I began to film JONAS, and I was single till 2009 when me and Miley..."reconnected". It was, in a way, the most amazing year I ever had. Until she met Liam, that is.
After our reconnection in January, we had a summer romance. It was beautiful, it was perfect, and I fell in love with her all over again. We were our firsts as we experimented that summer, falling more and more in love each day. I visited her in Georgia when I could, and we spent the summer of our life being 16 and being in love and being..happy. Miley Ray, well, hah, she's something else. I try not to think about it, but, she's got the most amazing laugh in the entire world. You can help but smile and laugh with her. And her eyes, well all I can say about her eyes is that they're like a storm. They never stop changing and they always remind me of rain, and the summer of 2009.
Or at least thats what I remember from 6 years ago.
I couldn't tell you anymore.
The only thing I heard of her was from Demi, who is her best friend and flew out there constantly to see her. But, I don't have much time to think about Miley Ray, I'm busy with life and love and being myself.
Selena is the love of my life...Don't get me wrong, but I have to remind myself of it everyday. But she's amazing.
She's got this luscious black hair that flows down her back, and deep brown eyes that match mine. And her laugh is pretty amazing too. She's a free spirit, and she's sweet. She's what I've always needed, she keeps me grounded and alive. She's not too out there, like Miley was, and we don't fight every night over something stupid, like Miley and I did. We're sensitive and in love, and I plan on being with her for a long, long time.
But then again, I missed those nights at 2am when Miley and I would be screaming at each other, waking up neighbors, and somehow thinking we had all the time in the world, that we would always have time to makeup and be like we were when we were happy. We were restless and-I stopped myself. I'm not going to think about this.
I squeezed Selena's hands to calm her nerves, and mine. She and Demi aren't necessarily close anymore, but I dragged her along because Demi's like a sister to me. I have to be here to see this. And its my brother! Joseph Jonas, the middle child yet somehow the most childish, getting married. It's going to be odd, yet beautiful.
I pull out my iPhone and smile at my background of me and Selena sharing a kiss with the sunset in the background. I'm playing Doodle Jump to entertain myself until the car slows to a halt and I look up at Selena with an excited grin. She half smiles at me with her pearly white teeth, and I roll my eyes, giving her hand one more reassuring squeeze as the driver opened the doors for us. Selena stepped out first, her long skinny legs sticking out as she gracefully stood up and the bright sun glared into the limo. She pulled me out and my eyes readjusted to the 4pm LA sun. It was 70 degrees out and the weather was beautiful.
We were on the edge of a cliff, overlooking the coast and it had to me one of the most beautiful sights I'd ever seen. The sun, still high in the air, was glaring down on the ocean and giving it a light blue hue, and it reflected onto the white chairs set in the audience. A vanity of roses were spread across an arch that my brother and almost sister would unite under.
The sun was still up in the air, shining down on us, and making Sel's hair shine more than it normally did.
People had just started to arrive, and many were heading either under one of the large white tents or some, dressed more formally and probably in the wedding, headed over to the small white building set in the corner to provide for dressing and makeup.
My smile wouldn't leave my face as Selena drug me under the tent.
"This is beautiful!" Selena exclaimed in her perfect voice, digging her nails into my hand.
"Yeah, you are." I laughed at my cheesy pick up line that fit the moment perfectly.
Sel laughed, her eyes lighting up as she leaned in for a kiss.
My lips embraced hers, I couldn't deny her one. I pulled away, as it was a kiss that was...normal. Something I got everyday, plenty of times.
As much as I wouldn't like to admit, there wasn't a spark, it was just a plain old kiss. Nothing new or adventurous. Just...Selena. And I was...fine with it. Used to it.
"Nick!" I heard a voice behind me exclaim. I turned around to see Madison Delagarza,
Demi's little sister, who wasn't so little anymore, now that she was 14.
"Maddy!" I yelled back and embraced her deeply. She was like my little sister, quite honestly. I pulled away and she stared at Selena quite awkwardly.
"Hey Selena." She said monotonously.
"Hi Maddy." Sel replied, lacking enthusiasm.
Sel was dressed in a bright red, strapless dress with black heels. She looked gorgeous, as always. Her black hair was in a soft ponytail on her head and she was absentmindedly making me want her, as her fingers twirled through her hair. I smiled at her. I had to be the luckiest man alive.
Maddy wore a yellow summer dress, that was free against her skinny, newly acquired body. She was a chubby little girl, but she'd thinned out and was now a beautiful young woman, quite like Demi, with one hell of a voice. I smiled as Maddy walked away, and people began arriving as I greeted each one and Sel and I said our hellos.
As we took our seats, in the front row next to my parents and family, I breathed in the fresh summer air and couldn't believe where I was. 10 years ago...Ha, well ten years ago, 2006, on a Summer day at 5pm...
I'd be walking along a Toluca Lake sidewalk, softly belting out "My Girl" as Miley rode her bike along the sidewalk, her light brown hair dancing behind her in curls, and her blue eyes shining like the summer sky. At age 13 she was still the most beautiful girl in the entire world.
She'd giggle and I'd smile at her, then she'd stop her bike, climb off, wrap her arms around me neck, and kiss me as my hands were around her waist, we fit together like pieces to a puzzle... Just for the hell of it.
And when we kissed, I was hypnotized and wrapped up in our little world. And I was happy with it. It was the happiest times of my life.
It was summer and we were in love and we didn't have a care in the world. We were two uprising stars who happened to fall in love at age 13. Who loved each other more than people thought possible. We grew up together, she made me who I am today.
They said we were too young, we said screw them.
We knew what we had was real.
It was love.
It was one of the best summers of our lives, her and I.
When she wasn't riding her bike, and I wasn't singing to her, we'd be at on the beach writing songs on our guitar, at PinkBerry getting frozen yogurt and dancing along the LA streets, browsing in stores, trying on ridiculous outfits, and falling in love for the first time.
We spent the night on the beach, had our first kiss, and had unbroken hearts that were free to fall in love and share with each other.
We were fearless.
After a couple of months, Miley became my best friend, and my love. I was there for her and she was there for me, there wasn't much more to it.
We were neighbors, and I'd wake up at 3am to have Miley throwing rocks at my window, and I'd sneak out and we'd climb onto her roof, just staring at the stars and talking about life, and who we were. She'd laugh at 3am and as sleepy as I was, I'd be awake, alive. She'd take my hand, and at her very touch I would be exhilarated and wanting more. I loved her more than I thought was possible.
But it wasn't like that anymore.
That was 10 years ago.
But somehow, I remember like it was yesterday.
Now, I was with Selena. And don't get me wrong. This girl is great...Perfect.
Almost, too perfect.
The way she laughed her delicate laugh at everything.
And it wasn't the loud,crazy laugh of Miley's, it was soft, almost insignificant.
It didn't make me want to kiss her, and I didn't have that urge when I saw her from behind to go up to her and wrap my arms around her waist, I didn'--
I paused my thoughts. I wouldn't let myself do this. I wouldn't let myself compare Selena to...To her.
It wasn't fair to either of them, especially Selena.
No one can compare to Miley. Not just because she's her...But because Miley was my first love. The feeling you get from your first love never dies, for as long as you live.
So as the soft music of Demi's old 2009 single, "Catch Me" began dancing from the surrounding speakers, I pushed Miley as far out of my mind as possible.
If I didn't think of her, she didn't exist. No one talked about her, at least around me, and it's not like I saw her. If I didn't think about Miley...Miley wasn't alive in my world. Except for in my dreams. Only in my dreams....
Before I fall.
Too fast.
Kiss me Quick.
But make it last.
And tonight I could fall too soon under this beautiful, moonlight.
Madison walked down the isle.
We were outside in the now cool LA air, the sun slowly setting in the horizon.
Madison's sandaled feet padded against the grass that lined the white chairs. Her red, slightly pink dress flowed behind her and just reached her skinned knees. She held a bouquet of daisies and petals began to spur off the flowers and danced onto the trimmed green grass.
The sun reflected off the water and made it shine, it was the beauty of nature.
It shone as much as Miley Ray's eyes, they were the exact same blue, the turquoise, unrealistic color that shone as bright as the sun in her eyes was like the sea. They were free like the wind and reeled you in, pulling you closer until you couldn't resist.
Ouch.
I pinched myself. The pain only distracted me for a millisecond and Miley was back in my mind once more.
Why was this happening, and why now? Why couldn't I get her off my mind? Why did it feel like she was closer than she had been in 10 years? Why did it feel like the summer of 2006 again?
Madison smiled us her braced smile as she passed us. But it wasn't her normal...Madison smile. It was something naive.
Something she seemed to be hiding something, and as she smiled I could have sworn she winked at me.
I tilted my head to the side and looked back to see the next person walking. No one came and people began to turn. A sound erupted from behind the building the girls were coming from.
First it was faint, and yet it was beautiful.
A smile spread over my face, almost habitually, instinctually.
Then the footsteps grew louder, it was a light padding that slowly became louder and louder, just as the laughter did.
I began to smile in a way I hadn't in years, ear to ear.
Suddenly, my eyes began to water, and my heart stopped beating.
And that's when I realized it.
She was here.
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