Sonny was back in paris, sitting on his bed, suitcase still at the bedside, he haden´t
have had the strenght to unpack, he just sat there, starring into nowhere. He felt so empty,
emptiness he had never felt before, how could Will, his Will be gone, gone for
good ?He once again felt his thorat tighten, felt the tears build up again, alltho´ he felt
he was all teared/ cried out as no tears was left to leave, he wanted to cry out, wanted to scream...
Omg Sonny thought, what about our little girl ? He felt quilty for leaving her, but
right now she needed her mommy and honestly he couldnt bear the thought of
looking at her, cus looking at her was like looking at Will image ( ...looking at will
image who was the image he saw each time he looked at Ari..) The way she smiled,
tip her head to the side when she wanted something, the way she scrunched her nose
she remined him so much of Will and right now he couldnt handle that...
Sonny still felt numbness in his entire body, like this was all just a horrible nighmare,
that he was just waiting to wake up from, but now how could this be a nightmare, he
himself had just laid his husbond to rest, said his last goodbye to his Will , his Will
that he thought he would grow old and grey with, he knew they could have worked
all what had happen between them behind he was ready to go home to him and Ari,
ready to start over, to forgive and forget, he knew he wanted him for life, no one else
, and then his uncle had called him with that call that changed everything in a split sec.
Once again Sonny broke down, face in his hands, he cried out loud " Noooo.. this has
to be a nightmare, it has to be..please wake up wake up...
How could Will be gone, without knowing that he still loved him and he always
would, he never had the change to tell him face to face that he wanted Will by his
side, that no matter what had happend between them, that they could work it out –
together. He knew that deep inside. He still wanted Will in his life, that there was
no one else that Will completed him made him whole, now he just felt like an empty
scheel... Then all of a sudden Sonny snapped out of it " hang on, why wouldnt they
allow me to see his body