Disclaimer: This song belongs to Evanescence.
A/N: This is just a song-fic about when Edward changes Bella into a vampire. It is what Bella is feeling and thinking as she starts to change. I hope you enjoy it. It is my first song-fic so Review and let me know how I did and what you think. I changed one word in the lyrics because it did not fit. That's all. ENJOY
P.S. The lyrics will be in italics.If you can't tell the song is Holding My Last Breath by Evanescence. If you can try and listen to it while your reading.
MY LAST BREATH
I was terrified sitting on the edge of the bed knowing what was coming.
Hold on to me love
Edward walked in and just his presence calmed me.
You know I can't stay long
As he walked toward me, I went over every detail of his face wanting to remember him as I saw him with my human eyes. From the look on his face, I knew that's what he was doing also. Taking in all the aspects of human Bella because it would be the last time he would see them. He sat on the bed and leaned against the headboard. He slipped his arms around my waist and pulled me back so I was lying against his chest. I leaned my head back against his shoulder and as I did, I took a deep breath soaking in the wonderful scent that was Edward. He leaned his head down and gently brushed his lips up and down my neck. A shiver ran through me. I was just getting ready to say…..
All I wanted to say was I Love You and I'm not afraid
That's when he sunk his venom-coated teeth into the soft flesh of my neck. I gasped. "Edward Edward"
Can you hear me?
Am I still with you? I thought
Can you feel me in your arms?
Holding my last breath
I held my breath until I felt like my chest was going to burst. I let it out and that's when the burning started.
Safe inside myself
I withdrew inside myself. The pain was starting to take over. I tried to think of all that I was going to have when the transformation was done.
Are all my thoughts of you
I thought back to all the wonderful times that we had already shared together and the many more to come
Sweet raptured life it ends here tonight
I couldn't suppress the thought that I was dying. Today had been my last day as a human.
I'll miss the sunshine
I used to lie outside and let the sunshine soak into me and warm me. No longer will I be able to do that and so much more.
The world of fragile things
Now that I was heading into immortality I realize how much I was going to loose. I think it will be all the little things that I will miss the most. The arms of my mother when she would hold me, the crinkly smile of my father, so much would be lost to me now. Lost but never forgotten. I knew that I was leaving one loving family but it helped tremendously knowing that I was now going to be welcomed into a bigger family with open arms. They had already shown me how much they loved and cared about me. One of the reasons I was where I am now was because of there unwavering support of Edward and me.
Look for me in the white forest
Hiding in a hollow tree (come find me)
I knew that if I was ever lost or afraid you wouldn't stop until I was found. I knew I would never be alone again.
"Edward Edward" I was barely able to whisper as another round of pain racked my body
I know you hear me
I can taste it in your tears
I'm sure that I would have been able to taste your tears now if you were able to shed them. Even in all my pain and convulsions. I could feel your body shaking with sobs and unshed tears as you held me tightly in your iron grasp.
Holding my last breath
Safe inside myself
Are all my thoughts of you
Sweet raptured life it ends here tonight
The pain was starting to become unbearable.
Closing your eyes to disappear
I wished I could sleep and escape into the world of dreams one last time but I knew I would never sleep again.
You pray your dreams will leave you here
I was starting to panic. What if I was really truly dying? No waking up, no immortality, and worst of all no Edward.
But still you wake and know the truth
No one's there
What if I awoke utterly alone and I had to endure all the pain and emptiness again as I did when my love left me.
Say goodnight
I was able to open my eyes a little bit and the pain and fear that I saw in your eyes would have been enough in itself to stop my heart from beating. I tried to lift my hand to touch your face to calm you and tell you I was still here.
Don't be afraid
"Bella? Bella my love can you hear me?" You said with your velvet sweet voice as you saw my eyes flicker open. I saw the fear that still clouded your beautiful eyes but I also saw immeasurable love. I tried to convey all the love I felt for you, how much you meant to me, how now I was whole and complete now that I had you and would spend the rest of eternity with you by my side, into that one final look before the darkness of unconsciousness that I had been fighting so hard against finally took me.
Calling me calling me as you fade to black
Holding my last breath
Safe inside myself
Are all my thoughts of you
Sweet raptured life it ends here tonight
A/N: I hope you liked it. Let me know if you want more song-fics because I got lots of ideas. PLEASE REVIEW. Many thanks.
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