What Love is!
Summary:- Mikan is betrayed by Natsume in the worst manner. Now she is shattered by his betrayal but what will happen next? Will She change or will her love?! Who's the new kid in the academy?!! Will Natsume realize his mistake?!! Read and find out.
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Disclaimer- I don't own Gakuen Alice!
Chapter 1:- My Agony
Mikan's POV:-
I saw it again and again and again…… Why is this happening to me only… What did I do to get this?... Is loving someone always wrong?!!!...
A 16 year old brunette ran from the midst of the forests not once looking back just ran and ran……..
I stopped once I was away from that scene which had shattered my belief for my love….. Recalling it back to my mind was like inserting a poison dart into one's heart….
Why did he do this???!!!!!... I asked myself millions of times….
But all that I received was the disgusting memory and another stab of pain in my heart…
I had been so happy!... So content with him in my life and now its all gone..just like a gust of wind unable to trap the figments of this thin air in my grasp… I'm not able to perceive in my mind why he did this…..
I contemplated in the current matter….. Giving a hoarse laugh on reaching my room where I fell upon my bed sobbing out the utter turmoil coiling within me…
Natsume…. This one name which once had brought showers of happiness but now that I come to think of it.. I could only sense his betrayal…..
I sat up my glance unfortunately landing upon a picture of me and HIM….
But what was the point???!!!! This time it was different…. You ask why… That bastard two-timed me….
"NATSUME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"- I screamed only to be silenced by my soft cries…..
I had seen him do this before but I had forgiven him thinking maybe he was confused…
Doing WHAT?!! You ask…. Making out with another woman for Christ's Sake!...
Yet I never said anything even though I knew that the times he disappeared had nothing to do with his missions which I had taken over for him and this fact he didn't know…
I find myself asking again and again why I never said anything, why I never once showed anger or maybe a little tinge of jealousy?!! Why I even bothered to risk my life in those god damn missions so that he won't lose his life span….!!!
Why????!!!!!!...Simple the answer is every time…Because I love him and trust him….
"So direct eh?!"- I really wanted to laugh at myself then…
But not this time… Catching him with another girl, seeing my love, my boyfriend making out with the one girl because of whom my parents weren't alive today was more than enough to make me understand that now IT WAS ALL OVER
Luna!... The bitch's name.. She had taken away my family and now my love… That easy was it?!!!... This was why I ran… I had been strolling in the woods for some peace but what do I find?... My guy with the bitch not just making out but about to do more than that….
The memory of it sends my body quivering with agony! YES AGONY!!!!!!...
That bastard never once really showed his concern towards me but I took it just like I had taken 6 years ago all his teasing, his insolence and his temper….. I can't seem to understand how I fell in love with such a cold blooded monster….
Looking at the fire crackling in my fire-place nearly made me cry another time… His alice was always so warm… Bad Luck the wielder had a heart of pure ice….
How I had forgiven him for the first time he did this with someone else I just don't seem to recall because now he had crossed my limits…..
I could continuously feel bitter… Little by little that incident in the woods was sucking away all the lightness, happiness and my cheerfulness from my body…. I've never felt this vulnerable before…. Sure I was innocent and at times very helpless but…….
No words to describe anything further…. Just plain old sorrow hurting me…..
There's a moment in life when you really go through hell…. Imagine every single kind of pain, sting, and curse stinging your body all at one time …. I was feeling like this…. Horribly pathetic…
Now I understand why emotional wounds are deeper than physical…. You have to dig, in order to get to the solution and doing that you permanently rip away all other feelings from your body…
I gave a sigh…. My eyes were woozy while my body trembling… Why hadn't I noticed before???!!!! I could feel so much of loath upon myself……
But soon that loathe turned into an emotion I was always devoid of feeling…
Anger, Wrath, Rage… Like a storm it came and right now was the reason I was finally given the strength to pick myself up with dignity and question the guilty…..
End of POV.
Mikan walked to the special star room where the Kuro Neko resided.
"BANG! BANG! BANG! BANG!"
"HOLD YOUR GUARDS DOWN!!!!!!!!"- She heard a loud yell coming from inside.
The door swung open to reveal a very annoyed yet sexy raven-head with even more deep crimson orbs….
"How could I have fallen for him?!"- Mikan thought to herself and stepped inside his room without giving one glance towards him….
"What the fuck is wrong with you!"- He yelled only to receive a resounding slap across his ruffled cheek.
"Mind your tone when you're talking to me Hyuuga!"- Mikan said clearly the anger seeping through it.
Natsume bolted his eyes wide at her composure…..
"What's wrong?"- He asked only to receive a death glare from the brunette who was trying hard not to let down her emotions…
"I'm breaking up with you"- She said no expression upon her face.
Mikan never allowed Natsume to talk instead she turned around and gave a smile- "I'm sorry but it seems that all this time you were merely using me and cheating on me with the one person who destroyed my parents life, Luna."
"I loved you so much but you threw away that love like it was a piece of trash; I don't really give a damn about what you want anymore because I've had enough! All my connections with you are over, the missions I went on to for you"- Here Natsume took in a sharp intake of breath.
"You hurt me deeply! All I wanted from you is your acceptance and your love, remember you were the one who courted to me but still you had to betray me huh?."
"Just answer me one question Hyuuga, WHY?"- Mikan asked her eyes were windows to her inner depression… Anyone could clearly make out that not only was she struggling to fight against her resonating pain also was she trying hard not to look weak.
Mikan had thought that maybe Natsume would show some repentance but all that he did was smirk at her….
Her eyes blazed fire as she saw him with that fucked up smile on his face.
"You ask why??!! Because you're too boring, too innocent, too stupid, too much of an idiot and the thing I hate about you most of all is your darn smile, trying to tell people how much of an angel you are, you're a bag full of pretence… A girl like you is of no use… You're dumb and fucking dense to see that the reason why I courted you….. It's cause there were no fish in the pond BITCH…. That inventor is too freaky and the fan girls make me sick… Having you with me not only increased my population it also opened up various"-
"So you basically used me huh?"- Mikan's voice was tightening slowly. She had to get out of there fast… She could sense the scent of her tears slowly reaching its limits….
"YEAH SO NOW THAT YOU KNOW GET THE FUCKING HELL"- Natsume never got to finish since Mikan screamed at him….
"SHUT UP! HOW DARE YOU DO THIS TO ME????!!!!!!!!!!!! I LOVED YOU AND ALL THIS TIME WHEN WE WERE TOGETHER YOU WERE LYING??!!"- The brunette had to scream or she would have cried.
"BITCH! I CAN DO WHAT EVER THE HELL I WANT!!!!!! I NEVER TOLD YOU THAT I LOVED YOU NOW DID I????!!!! JUST ASKED YOU TO BE MY GIRLFRIEND WHICH NOW YOU'RE NOT! YOU'RE JUST SO FUCKING STUPID TO UNDERSTAND"-
"SLAP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"- Another one which Mikan hit out at him unable to control the numerous emotions flooding her brain.
With that she left his room walking away….
The minute Mikan reached her room she fell into deep sobs…. Breaking down her limits so that all that was troubling her would get an outlet.
Tears, a sign of weakness for some while for others a way to let their worries flow..
She lay there like a still china doll, the tears stinging her eyes as she sought to settle the commotion welding up inside of her…..
"BANG!"- The door flew open revealing an utterly devastated raven-head.
"Mikan!!!!!!!!"- Hotaru gasped as she saw her best friend so lifeless there….
She hurriedly ran over to her enveloping her in her embrace while Mikan finally broke down her tears gushing down her cheeks…
"Mikan!!! Mikan!!! Its gonna be all right!"- Hotaur whispered as she rocked the brunette in her arms softly.
"He… ch-cheated H-Hotaru…Why..W-What did he get out of doing it??!!!"- The brunette cried in despair.
"Forget about him Mikan, just forget about him"- Hotaru's stoic yet firm voice ordered.
"Y-Yes!"- Mikan said leaving Hotaru's embrace upon her and slipped inside her bed where she fell into deep sleep.
Hotaru sighed as she looked upon her best friend's agony….
"Mikan"- she whispered before departure.