Spoilers: Over there parts 1 & 2, some photo spoilers.
Disclaimer: If they were mine the show would have probably ended on season 2.
Author's notes: Unbeta, I know my English is not perfect and that there is a lot of room for improvement; however, I really hope you read it.
Sometimes
Sometimes she feels like she doesn't belong here, it is a weird feeling; eerie, but it is there, constantly, as if warning her of something.
Everything has been weird since the explosion thing, she was knocked up unconscious and stayed that way for a whole week, or so they say: Charlie, her mother, Frank, it has been since then that she started to feel odd.
Frank has been quite comprehensive about the whole situation, trying to be patient, sometimes she feels like she doesn't know him at all, as if what they have is a lie. Sometimes she feels like she doesn't love him anymore.
Something similar tends to happen when she is with her mother, she feels sad, as if she hadn't seen her in a very long time, as if she had been death for her for many years. She hugs her to compensate for that.
The only three people with whom she feels more at ease are Charlie and Coronel Broyles, sometimes even with that strange girl; Agent Farnsworth, and of course the Secretary, she feels like she can trust him, as if he somehow has her back, it is weird, everyone keeps telling her that they really aren't that close.
Sometimes she would look at her reflection and feel something is wrong, as if her hair should be another color, different somehow.
Sometimes when she opens her closet she expects it to be all black and grey, not the multiple array of colors she has.
Sometimes she looks at the city and sees a different one, as if she is on drugs and hallucinating something that it's not there.
Charlie made her two questions the other day when they went out for drinks; where is your tattoo? and When did you start drinking?, she doesn't remember ever getting a tattoo, but she can remember the taste of whiskey on her mouth.
Sometimes she feels like she is missing someone, she can see the face of a little girl with her sister in her dreams, her mother tells her she just misses Rachel too much.
Sometimes when she sees Lee she remembers a man she had seen in her dreams, he never seems to shave, blue sparkling eyes, blue as the ocean, gentle blue, but it's the only place where she sees him and there's nobody who looks like him here, she can't explain it.
Sometimes she feels as if somebody is calling her from afar, she feels this longing in her chest, a void that cannot be fill with anything, she can hear his voice, she knows is his voice, as if somebody is calling her to go home, as if something were wrong. She cannot explain that either.
Sometimes she feels like she doesn't belong here.
FIN
I wrote this after seeing some photos of Anna and Kirk behind the scenes, and until now I have completely ignore the brainwash theory, but it's that or Olivia made a very weird deal with Walternate, anyway, I thought that it would also be a kind of revenge from Walternate, make Olivia believe she is from "over there" as Walter made Peter think he was from "here".