You stare at me
Your eyes asking….
I don't know
Why?
How?
I asked those same things
I screamed at the sky
I dove into hell
I begged for the lives of those I couldn't save
And what have I now?
Nothing
I am nothing
I am everything
Who I am is feared
Who I was is forgotten
And still I wonder…
What would you have done?
If you took a walk in my shoes… what would you do?
I know you're answer
Damn, you're so high and mighty
That damnable smirk would slide over your face
You would say 'I would have refused. I would have controlled my own fate.'
Ha
Foolish boy
How do I know you're answer?
I was a foolish child too, young one
I thought there was a way out
I was a genius after all
One man couldn't outwit me
No man could
This was my story
He was the villain
I was the hero
The hero…
Such a foolish child I was
I believe in good and evil
I believed in heaven and hell
I believed in chaos and order
I believed in you
Is that hurt I see in you're eyes?
Pain?
Does my rejection really sting so much?
Foolish child
I was never able to reject you
Don't you understand?
This pain
This unending torment
I endure it for you
Those words I never said
Those words that killed me
The words I will never say
When I look at your face
They force their way up my throat
They sit on my tongue
They beg for release
Those three words…
They burn under my skin
I refuse to acknowledge them
You have three words to say to me as well
The same amount of letters
The same amount of syllables…
With a meaning completely opposite to those of mine
I love you….
I hate you….
How similar those statements are
It's easy to hate someone
It's hard to love them
You can learn to hate someone in moments
It takes years to learn to love
Them
Hate is the only thing I see in you now
And pain
The only thing I regret…
I watched that hatred grow in you
I watched it destroy you
I even helped it along at times
I watched
For years I watched
I felt your feeble attempts grow strong
I felt pride in your progress
I knew it was coming
I knew visiting the nine tails was pointless
That I knew
But I had to try
To give back what I had stolen
To give back what I had no right to take
I waited that day
I knew you would come
You were overeager as usual
It made me happy…
You were strong
Very strong
But still not strong enough
But in that last hour…
I gave up
I gave up the last thing I had
I stood up, blood streaming from my mouth
I looked into that damn face….
Damn you…
Fuck you….
…Thank you
My eyes met yours…
Yours met mine…
I feel my feet shuffle towards you
You can't run this time
And this time I won't let you
In that last moment I reach out
Touching you with whispers of memories long destroyed.
In that moment
Everything stops
The world falls away
There's nothing but you and I
I say those words
I whisper them
I scream them
In that moment I remember heaven
I taste it for the first time
I want hold on to it
To never let go…
Then the world snaps back
Everything is as it was
I am me
And you are you
I set you free with a smile on my face
That same damn smile we both know so well
Confusion clouds your face
Heh
Foolish little brother
"Sorry Sasuke… this is it."