Though I hate to say it, but I unfortunately do not own Twilight.

I never knew why I couldn't fit quite in with my adopted siblings and parents. Though Carlisle and I always had a great relationship (as I also had with the others), there was just something always missing in my life. It wasn't materialistic things, as thanks to Alice's knack of being able to predict the ups and downs of the stocks and shares market we were never short on money. It took me a while to realise (with the help of my intensely annoying mind reading capabilities) that it was a mate that I needed. Not wanted – needed. It had come to my attention that though it was blatantly obvious all of my other family members had been paired off long ago. Though I like my own company and am happy to indulge in my few hobbies, there was an emptiness that on another level I knew had to be filled. It has taken me up until now to realise that whilst I would sit up through the night reading and studying, there was another life to be had if I had a mate. I am not unintelligent so obviously realise that there would be some sort of sex life, which I never even had when human, but also the tenderness and opportunity to be with someone. Someone who felt that they could not be without you. Live without you. Exist without you. I never felt romantic feelings towards anyone whilst I was human; yet being in this life I couldn't help but see it through others eyes. Or should I say mind? Just allowing my guard down for mere seconds would allow me to see what others thought, being sometimes a help, but mostly a hindrance. It allowed me to see what I was missing, the thought of undying love towards another. I had never really thought on this before until a recent conversation with my doting adopted mother Esme. I knew as soon as she had approached me what her intentions were – her mind giving them away. As easy as reading an open book. "Dear, are you sure you're okay? You've been looking a little down recently. A little pale." I could see the corner of her mouth twitch up on the word pale as if it was an inside joke.

"I can assure you that I am fine Mom. Maybe I just need to sit out in the sun for a while." She smiles at that, knowing that there was a time when I couldn't accept who or what I am. Her mind yet again gives away her concern, unable to accept my words. "Esme I am really fine. I know what Alice saw but times have changed, and I'm not going down that route anymore. Anyway I thought you were off hunting with Carlisle tonight?" A smooth change of subject if I do say so myself.

"There was some sort of emergency down at the hospital, so I told him to go right on ahead. He's supposed to be working the night shift tonight also – so he'll probably just stay there and work right on through. So I am here to keep you company if you wish dear..." I didn't mean to get a grimace on my face but I just prefer my own company at times, and this was one of those times. "...or I can work on some of my designs. Now I think about it I had better get up to date on designs." She bent down and kissed me on the forehead like any loving mother would to her child, and swiftly exited the room. That was a while ago now I closed my eyes as I reflected back on that memory, when the sound of pixie feet became heard.

Hello?

" Alice" I sighed, " you know you don't have to think what you're going to say, you could always talk like a normal person." I replied whilst re-opening my eyes.

"We both know that with my visions and need for animal blood that I will never be a normal person."

"True that. Whilst we are on the subject of being truthful, I would appreciate it if you keep your visions to yourself and quit telling Mom and Dad you know they're favourite hobby is to worry about me and that doesn't help. I'm not going to have a slip again so stop searching for it." I may have said that with more spite than needed but Alice has to stop telling the rest of the family about her visions including me. As I said that a new vision came to the front of her mind, but it disappeared as quickly as it came. "Alice – what was that? Alice? Alice tell me!"

She flooded her mind with translations in order to mask the vision, "I don't know what you're talking about that was nothing, just an old vision that you brought to mind. It doesn't matter; I have to go find Jazz." And with that the pixie turned and was out of the room as quick as a flash. I glanced outside and sighed. It was one of the very rare sunny days in Forks, so there was no way that I was able to go to Portland indiscreetly, to visit one of the very limited book stores. So I sat and let my mind wander. It was one of the very uncommon peaceful days in the house, Carlisle and Esme hunting, Alice and no doubt Jasper had disappeared, and Rosalie and Emmett were still away on their third honeymoon and not expected back until tomorrow. It allowed me time to think about the glimpse I had of Alice's vision – there was no doubt in my mind that it was a school scene, though there seemed to be someone new in the vision, a person I hadn't laid eyes on before. Hmph. New kid. Wouldn't have any effect on me when we go back – unless they were to be a stunningly gorgeous vampire. Doubtful.

When I first realised that Alice had had another vision, I thought it may be one of her and Esme's attempts at trying to find me another mate. I knew that they had tried to set me up with nomads on countless occasions, yet it was better to pretend that I didn't know that they planned it. Each one I met was nice enough – with the exception of one – but I could never feel drawn to them. Or think the things that I had known were thought about a vampires mate. I left them to carry on with them as it kept them from nagging me, like any proper adoptive mother and sister would do. I don't think they understand that I am able to do these things for myself, it's not like I don't want a mate because I do. I'm sure I will find a mate soon. Ha! Don't kid yourself Bella - and I can't. For I am Bella Cullen, prettyish, immortal and what seems to be forever single.

Writers note:

Yeah so that was my first ever attempt at writing a fanfiction. Please review whether you loved it, hated it, whatever you thought. As I have no idea whether to carry on with this – or where to even take it. So any suggestions or constructive criticism is welcome. And just please tell others to read.

Thanks, Emma