Now, I know I was saying that I was going to do two stories called Remember When, and Aftershocks. Well, I am going to do both, but it'll be a little later on. I really wanted to write a season 4 fic, and I started to write today. I have no idea where I'm going with this. I have an idea, but I just really have no idea what I'm doing, so please forgive me right now. I just want to try this out.

The first chapter is kinda of...bleh...bare with me please!!

Disclaimer: I do not own Instant Star. All the titles are going to come from the song Up Against the Wall by Boys like Girls, unless otherwise told.

Chapter 1: Look out Below

Tommy and Jude opened the door to her house. Once inside, Jude dropped her backpack and took a deep breath. She turned to Tommy with a serious expression. "I am never—I repeat—never going backpacking through any country ever again," she announced as she fell onto the couch. She sighed in content happy to feel something soft under her. Jude had chosen Tommy, and she knew it was the right thing. But, now she regretted taking him up on his offer to go through Asia with nothing but a backpack.

Tommy chuckled at her behavior and kissed her cheek. He made his way to the kitchen to make her some coffee. Tommy was so in love with this girl, words couldn't even describe it. Traveling through Thailand was rough, but also magical for him. He got to learn so much more about his girl. His girl; that felt so good to say. He smiled at her angelic face. He put some sugar and french vanilla cream in Jude's hot coffee. He placed the mug in front of her on the coffee table. Tommy saw Jude inhale. She put a smile on and fluttered her eyes open.

She smiled up at Tommy and took the mug. She sipped it slowly, careful not to burn her tongue. "Yum," she mumbled as she brought the mug back up to her lips. She the mug down as Tommy sat next to her. "So, what do we do now?" Tommy asked her.

"We sleep," Jude suggested.

"Sleep? But you slept the whole plane ride here." He said.

"Yea, but I haven't slept in a real bed all summer. I don't know about you Quincy, but I miss my bed."

They heard the doorbell ring and Jude grabbed her mug of coffee and went to open it. She swung open the door and Sadie was there with a smile on her face. "Sadie!" Jude squealed.

"Hi Jude!" Sadie squealed back. "You have no idea how much I missed you." Sadie hugged her little sister tightly. She had gone to Mexico with her boyfriend Kwest, and she had a wonderful time. Sadie walked in and saw Tommy sitting on the couch. She smiled at Jude and then at him. "See, I told you to follow your heart."

Jude giggled and her and Sadie sat on the couch next to Tommy. Since Jude picked Tommy, everything seemed to be going pretty good. There was just one thing she was worried about. She hadn't seen Jamie since that night he asked her to be a producer. She didn't know how she was going to deal with him.

After Sadie went to sleep and Tommy went home to unpack she decided to check on Jamie. Maybe it wouldn't be so bad. Maybe he would understand. Jude rolled her eyes at her thoughts. This was going to be a disaster and she knew it. She knocked on Jamie's door and she felt her heart beat a little faster. She was nervous, and she just hoped things wouldn't end badly. Nana had opened the door and looked at Jude with wide eyes. "Jude," she said. "I am so glad you're back."

"Thank you, Nana," Jude smiled. "It's good to see you too."

"Oh, Jude, you have missed a lot since you've been gone," she said sadly shaking her head.

Jude took a good look at her. Nana's eyes were red and puffy. She seemed even more weak than usual. "Are you okay?" Jude asked funny concerned.

Tears started to fall down the elderly woman's face. "It's Jamie dear," Nana said and put her head down.

Her heart skipped a bit and she forgot how to breathe. What could be wrong with Jamie? Was he sick? Did he get hurt? Jude tried to stay calm. She had to know what was happening. "What's wrong with Jamie?" Jude asked slowly.

"He has…passed on," Nana said.

Her heart had completely stopped beating. Tears were filling up her eyes and blurry her eyes. She blinked and the water escaped the brink of her eyelids. "How?" Jude choked out.

"It was a very rainy day. The roads were so slippery. His tires just gave out. He died last month."

"No!" She screamed and fell to her knees in uncontrollable sobs. Jamie, her best friend, was gone. He was gone forever and Jude would never see him again. It was her fault. It was all her fault. If she had chosen him, maybe she could've prevented it. The last time she had seen him was three months ago after her illegal concert. But she went to Tommy and hadn't even said a simple goodbye to Jamie.

Now, all of a sudden, he was taken from her. Jude's body shook as she cried. Nana put a comforting hand on her shoulder trying to calm her. "I have something for you dear," she whispered in Jude's ear. She went into the house and a minute later came back out. Jude still hadn't calmed down. "He left this for you."

Nana held out a small velvet box to Jude. Jude hesitantly took it and opened it. It was a simple gold band with her birthstone on it. There was a piece of paper taped to the top of the box. I ripped it off and opened it.

Dear Jude,

I got this ring for you. It's a promise ring, to promise that I will always be there for you whenever you need me. No matter what Jude, you have always been there and I just want to say thank you. This is for you. It belongs to you. I love you more than anything Jude, and I'm glad you chose me.

Love forever,

Jamie Andrews

A sobbed escape Jude's throat as she cried again. He had thought she was going to choose him. He was going to give her a beautiful promise ring. She held the little box to her heart. It was true. All of it was true. Jamie Andrews, was dead.

Okay, so that's what I have so far. I know what I want to do. I have scenes and everything now. All I need to do is get there. -lol- I'm taking a real risk putting this up, but I hope all of you will stay beside me!! PLEASE REVIEW!