Disclaimer: I don't own Grey's Anatomy – this goes for the whole story.

A/N: Please read and review

Meredith slowly lifted her foot, and began what seemed like the assent of Mt. Everest, where in reality all she was doing was lifting a foot in order to walk towards a man.

Walking towards him, she had a slight grimace on her face but could see his features rise as hope spread within him. Reaching him, and seeing him deflate as he saw the agony on her face and anticipated what Meredith was going to say, she could barely whisper.

"I'm…I'm sorry…I have to…I'll ring you, I'll explain everything, I promise", as they stood there in a stony silence, tears were rolling down Meredith's face, "Finn, please talk, say something…" she begged him, in the hope of getting confirmation that he understood.

Meredith slowly extended her hands to hold his, but he just looked at her, his face full of disdain, and walked around her and down the stairs without looking back, leaving Meredith standing there with her arms outstretched slightly.

Her back still turned to Derek, she gathered herself and strode of down a corridor all to familiar.

"Meredith" he yelled, "Meredith, wait!" he continued as she disappeared into an exam room.

"Meredith, can I come in?" he stood at the door with his hand on the knob and rested his head against the glass.

"No, no you can't!" She had to keep him out, letting him in would only result in questions she couldn't answer.

"Meredith, please…we need to talk" Silence ensued, "Please, all I want is to talk, just talk, that's all".

"Fine. We'll talk, but you're staying out there." Meredith offered her conditions as she sank to the floor with her back on the door and head between her legs.

"Ok" he agreed, sliding down till he was sitting on the floor, leaning on the door in exactly the same place as Meredith, but on the other-side.

"You start…" she knew they had to talk and this way she could only hear him, and any looks he may give her, she wouldn't be able to see them. It was for the best.

"Meredith, I love you. In a big sort of way. You make me feel warm inside when you smile, and I feel sick to my stomach when you ignore me. And when I think of another man touching you I am consumed by unrelenting rage and jealousy. I love you, you are the reason I get up in the morning, you are my everything. I made a huge mistake, I thought I should try, but you are all I want. I love you Meredith.

Meredith sat there shell-shocked, in complete silence, afraid of what might come out if she opened her mouth.

They sat there like that, without uttering another word for what seemed like an eternity.

"Meredith" Derek said in hushed tones as he stood up once again to face the door, "Meredith, are you ok?"

Slowly the door opened and he saw Meredith standing there with tears running down his face. She stood there, in front of him and tried to wipe away her tears, with an almost apologetic sob, the first sound she made after he laid out his heart to her.

"Oh, Meredith" he said as he moved towards her, "Please don't cry, I mean it, I love you" he cupped her face with his hands and wiped away her tears, and gently kissed her forehead. They stood, with Derek holding Meredith, resting his head on hers, while she silently shook with emotion, and so they remained like that until the sound of a door slamming finally broke their revere and she stepped back.

"It's not enough" Meredith said wiping her face, "You hurt me, it's not enough" She walked past him and out the door.

He followed Meredith out and watched her walk away until he could no longer see her. Then he turned on his heal and walked away in the opposite direction, out to the parking lot and got into his car and sat there. Thinking, contemplating and trying to figure out what to do next, when he saw her walking out across the lot towards her car. Red hair just visible under the lights.

Meanwhile, Meredith was lying on a bed in an on-call room in the dark. She got out her phone and dialled a number.

"Finn? It's me…I'm, I'm…sorry about before" she greeted him nervously, "But we need to talk"

"No we really don't, it's perfectly obvious what's going on" he spoke slowly, but with a harsh undertone, she could feel the disappointment in his voice.

"Please, I need to explain" She begged, with a fresh stream of tears falling down her face.

"No, you don't. I tell you that I have plans, you say you're fine, then run off leaving me confused."

"Please…"

Ignoring her plea he continued, "then you return, tell me you're sorry and that you will call me later. And through all this there's another man standing near you, always looking at you, and somehow you expect me not to notice?"

In a soft, broken tone in hardly more then a whisper she said "I love him Finn, and I'm sorry I though I was over him, but I'm not. And I don't think I ever will be, it's not fair on you…I'm just so sorry Finn…"

"Thank you, that's all I needed to hear. Goodbye Meredith" Finn said as he hung up on her for the last time.

"Bye Finn" Meredith said to her self as she closed her phone.

And lying there on the bed, with her prom dress spread out, her eyes wide open staring at the top bunk, all she could think about was how she should be at home comforting her friend whose fiancée had just died, not lying there wallowing over all of her problems.

As Derek pulled up to the trailer, he could see the light shining out the widows, meaning Addison was still up. He sat in his car a minute longer, then mustered his confidence and got out. Walking towards the trailer, still in his prom suit, Derek had a reserved look on his face, but once again he hesitated at the door. He turned the handle and went inside, where he could see Addison in bed with her pyjamas on reading.

"There you are" Remarked Addison with a smile, "I heard the car pull up a couple of minutes ago. What were you doing?" As she said this Derek turned to face her, catching sight of his expression she asked in a worried apprehensive tone. "Derek, what's wrong?"

Pacing back and forth Derek attempted to explain, "I told you when we got back together that Meredith wasn't a cheap fling, I told you that I loved her and still did, I asked you to wait, I said it would take me time to get over her" At this he stopped pacing and turned to face her, "But Addi, I'm not over her, and truth be told I don't want to be over her. I love her, and I'm sorry but we can't be together anymore."

Addison slowly climbed out of bed and got her suitcase out from under it, "I'll just pack my things up, I can stay in a hotel…" She said putting on a happy face, while just underneath you could see her pain.

"No…" Derek said as he laid his hand on her arm, and she stopped moving. "I'll go, you stay as long as you need."

Addison sank back onto the bed and nodded, the smile vanishing from her face, while Derek grabbed a bag and a few changes of clothes.

"Goodbye Addison" Derek said as he looked at her with a pitying expression, and walked out of the door, closing it quietly behind him.

"Goodbye Derek" Addison said to an empty trailer. And she lay down, turned the light out and lay there, listening to the sound of her husband driving off.

A/N: Ok, so please tell me what you think, this is my first Grey's fic and I need advice – criticism is welcome. Should I continue? Where should I go with it? – I have a few ideas. But advice is needed.