I licked my lips, i knew what I wanted. I kept the beat on my drumset while he paraded around in front of me. Dancing and singing. I lose myself in his voice and keep with the intensity of the song. My gaze never leaving the singers back. His beautiful tattoo fit well on his form. He looks back at me a moment and gives me a strange look. I must have missed a beat. He turns and continues on.

As I stand and walk towards the screaming audience, drumsticks in hand, my heart beats from my chest. I always am nervous at this part. What if I hit someone? I tossed my drumsticks carefully to the audience. I smiled a bit to myself to see someone catch them from the air. The bassist pats my back and tosses his picks to the audience. I walk to the edge of the stage and see him standing there. I thought that was just my drums earlier, apearrantly my heart beats almost as hard at seeing him sweating from the concert.

"Shinya..You missed a beat earlier. Thats not good. What has you so distracted?" He eyed me and asked after taking a rather large gulp from his water bottle.

"Nothing.. Just.."I strayed from my words. Looking at him, I walk away, my cheeks burning red. I knew I couldnt tell him the truth. "Missing home!" I shouted over my shoulder.

I stepped into the hotel room, and looked around. Home was nice, I miss Miyu and Yuyu, my poor puppies must be so scared. As much as I missed home though, It was nothing compared to being on the road with the guys. I placed my hand on my chest and sighed. Finally calmed my pounding heart. I picked through my bag and found some comfier clothes. Throwing them on quickly I ran to meet the others for dinner. Kaoru said we should eat together more often. That it brings about a more "Family feel" to the band. Another reason I couldnt speak to Kyo the words I feel.

I met with Daisuke in the lobby of the hotel, He said the others already left. He didnt want to leave me behind. Daisuke was like an older brother to me, he cared about me but he picked on me all the same. I guess thats what family does?

We walked down the sidewalk to the restaurant."'McGuires' ?" I'd asked. "Yeah, Its supposed to be like an irish pub type thing" Daisuke responeded as we walked in. We saw the others sitting at a round table on the other side of the room. My eyes were on Kyo. I smiled a bit and waved at them all, they waved back. They had all ordered their drinks and were already on their second round.

I sat quietly at the table of rambunctious men. All save for myself and Kyo were drunk to stupidity. I watched him stand and pull a cigarrete out of his pocket then head to the door. I stood and followed. "What am I doing..?" I thought to myself. He stood in the wind outside the restaurant. Smoke blowing towards me. I walk up next to him. "Hi.." I stutter.

"Hm..? " he exhales the smoke. "What are you doing out here? I went outside because you complained about my smoking last time." He looked up at me.

"Well, I wanted to talk. Theres something I've had on my mind as of late. " I manage to get the words out.

"And?" Kyo takes another puff from his cigarette.

I sigh. This wasn't going to be easy. "Kyo, You're a good friend, the reason I've been so distracted lately is because of you. My missing queues and daydreaming. I just lose myself. " I turn a slight red and say "I just wanted that off my chest is all."

Kyo looked up at me,exhaling the smoke. "I kinda figured. You had been acting odd lately. "

Odd? He considered my behavior odd? Not fangirl-ish nor stalker type creeper. Just odd. Well, It could have been better, but also far worse! I grinned and thought this to myself. "I apologise if its bothered you..." I say to him, but he is already walking back inside. Tossing the remainer of his bad habit on the ground and stepping it out.

I sighed and stretched. Walking back inside to celebrate another concert gone well.