AUTHORS NOTE: This started out as one of my fictionpress stories and then the next thing I have drunken Robbie rambles. I'm going to make this into a chapter fic, despite I already have like a million on the go! It's also a prompt :D

DISCLAIMER: I don't own the characters

[Fear]

So I'm afraid.

I know I rarely admit this but damn, I'm feeling it.

You'll never guess what started this feeling. Go on, have a guess. No? Okay. I'll tell you just because I feel like I'm in a talkative mood right now. I'm afraid of what I feel for my partner. Now I hear your little brain working on the fact that I should feel love for my partner, right? Wrong. She's not my life partner. She's my work partner. You see I'm a detective and I need to rely on my partner.

I do. Don't get me wrong, I wouldn't trust my life with anyone. Well maybe Stuart but that's a given. He's my best friend. What kind of person doesn't trust their best friend? Shit. I'm rambling. You don't want to hear my rambles, right? Well, you do. That's why I'm rambling but I meant my rambles on Stuart but trust me, you love him.

Now where was I? Oh right, yeah. Jackie.

She's amazing. She's got everything you need in a detective. She's there every step of the way, she can think things out quick so you know what to do and she always sees the bigger picture so that if anything else happens, you're not about to get a bullet. I've taken too many bullets in my time to lie and tell you that it aint painful because I tell ya, it's a bitch of a pain.

But Jackie is more than amazing. She's god damn beautiful but she doesn't realise it and that's what makes her a million times more attractive. We've all slept with the girls that were up themselves, right? Well I hate girls like that. I might sleep with them a lot but there's no sustenance. Nothing! It's shocking because they make brilliant bed partners but I love banter as well as an intelligent conversation every now and again. I bet you don't believe that listening to my rambles!

She has that beautiful brown hair that recently she's taken to curling and do you know how hard it is to restrain the urge to lean over so that I can curl one of the delicate tendrils around my finger? I want her to look up at me with those doughy brown eyes, her lips slightly parted as a blush works its way up her cheeks... Yes. As you can tell I've seen her fall for this simple action off many guys before and yet every one of them bastards broke her heart. I could have hunted them down and ripped their hearts out if I get the chance. She'd probably kill me because she's the feminist kind of woman. I swear to god, she's such a pain in my arse.

How come it's the ones that annoy us we fall for?

I bet you she doesn't love me. I can tell from the way she constantly picks at my habits that she literally can't stand me and just puts up with me because I'm her work partner. I bet the idea of ever being in a relationship with her would drive her crazy. I'd drive her crazy. I'm a slob. She's a neat freak. Stuart and she would make a beautiful couple. Well minus the fact he's dating you, right? Sorry. I keep slipping up and going back to Stuart. He's my safety net. I know I can trust on him. You should be proud.

Do you not agree she's beautiful?

What do you mean you think I've had one too many? I've had what... like... oh wow, is that fifteen empty shot glasses in front of me? Ewan, you should have stopped me ages ago! I know. You did try. I'm a bully. I get you. Okay. One more, please? Oh come on. I promise not to drive home... give me a minute... here you go. You can keep my keys tonight. Just one for the road, I promise. I have work tomorrow. I don't need the partner on my back.

Did I mention I love my partner? I did. Oh. I'm sorry. I'm a bad drunk. She's kind of met a new guy. You probably knew that though because you, her and Stuart are like best friends, right? I think he's a dick. No. I haven't met him. What's your point? I'm sure he's lovely in real life but is he good enough for our Jackie?

You know what, I don't know if I am but I damn wish I was good enough. I think I'd offer her everything she could ever want. Love, protection and great sex! Isn't that the key things of a relationship? No. I haven't been in a serious relationship in a long time. You trying to suggest that I've gone wrong somewhere? I'm sure I'll work it out. So now that I've emptied my glass I suppose I'd best get going home.

No. No taxi is necessary. I like the walk. I like to think. I like to think about my... Yes, Jackie. How did you know? Oh. I've spoke about her all night. I'm a bad drunk. Did I mention that she had a new... Oh I did? I think that's a sign I need to go home.

Goodnight.

TO BE CONTINUED...